I was just thinking(and sometimes that can be very dangerous) lol I do watch alot of crime stories on TV and read a lot of crime books. I mostly like true stories. Well I was watching a crime series that had three people on, all of which claimed to be innocent of their crimes. Well just so happen they had DNA evidence in each of the cases. They tested the DNA evidence One out of three was innocent of the crime.

So was thinking why don't they test everyone that is serving time in Prison that they do have DNA evidence of their particular crime. The Penal system set aside money for this.....With government helping. Now the catch would be, if the DNA showed their innocent then be set free they would get a set amount of money for being falsely accused but could no sue for anymore money and that money would be based on time they spend in prison, and can not sue for any more. Now the people that are found guilty again through DNA and wasted the time of others would get more added to their sentence. People on death row would not be able to have anymore appeals and would start the process of being put to death.

I'm sure there is loop holes in my thinking and any lawyer would find them and use it. That's what they are good at. Also what I think of lawyers if a person is found guilty and DNA says they are guilty then don't appeal. You know the average criminal spends at least 17 years on death row with appeals going, to me if they are guilty and sentenced to die and you as lawyers know they are then why are you trying to get them off and wasting court time???? They say that the death penalty doesn't deter crime. I believe that if it was swiftly done throughout the USA that it would send a message that you don't get along time to wait to die. For people that are against the death penalty, well its there in some states so get over it.

That's my soap box for today. Then again I could be all wrong with my thinking here, but it is only a thought.

Today I actually slept until 2pm. I think I am getting lazy. I was up playing different computer games after working a 12hour shift so I think I was just tired. So what have I done since I woke up played computer games. LOL It has been raining today off and on so really didn't get to do any outside work done, even though I have plenty of inside work to keep me busy. But thats my story and I am sticking with it.

I have been emailing different people just trying to keep up emails but Alot of people don;t answer. I might get a email every once and awhile, then I can't remember what I emailed them about. Anyway Peter's older daughter had her baby last month. Its a shame we couldn't have the money to fly out and be with her. She and her husband live in Louisiana USA. They had a girl named her Rachel Erin )hope I spelled that right) she has sent pics and she is so cute. Peter daughter has lived in the USA for over 5 years she move there when I move here. I have met all Peter children and they all are very nice to me.

This week has gone by very fast seems like the older you get the faster it goes. My daughter anniversary of her death is this month. The 19th which is on a Monday and I just don't know whether I should take off work or just on to work to keep my mind off of it.... I have so many first this year and then there will be the funeral that I had back in April 29th of last year. Her father was suppose to put up a tomb stone for her grave. Thats what he told my Mom anyway. I had my other daughter to go check about 2 weeks ago to see if he had done it. Guess what no stone up at her grave. I played for all the funeral at least he could put the stone up at her grave. What a loser.... I guess I will call my mom to see if my other daughter has called her to tell her about the no stone at the cemetery. I don't think me getting in contact with him will do any good. I know he is still upset with me about the divorce. But I don't think the children we had together has anything to do with our divorce should be separate issue. But he seems to take everything personal and the kids that came out of our marriage are paying for it. Not right but what could I do. Stay married to him ???? I should think not.... Maybe not married my second husband(that was for sure since I ended up divorcing him also) Well I can't be blamed for his actions. Is really pitiful that he can't even buy a tombstone for his own daughters grave. He never had a relationship with any of his kids and he still don't want to have anything to do with his children that are living he made it plane at the funeral by not even talking to them. Well he did say a few things to his son but the other daughter he didn't. I don't even think he has seen his grandchildren. Sounds like I am bitter, but I am really not, he has missed out on knowing these beautiful people that I gave birth to, oh yeah at time you think how in the world am I ever going to make until these kids grow up, but there are more moments of gosh I love them so much than there are the bad times. All the mothers out there will know what I am talking about and father also that are involved with their children.

I am posting a pic of Ireland, which is of a dolmen, burial tomb of the druids(I think I spelled that right) Hey give Peace a chance.

Gee its been awhile since I last posted. I told myself that I wouldn't do this, that I would try to post something everyday.... Then weeks go by and here I am. The good news is that I don't have to have another MRI until next year my tumor in my ear hasn't grown,it is still 4mm. I have been referred to a neurosurgeon in Dublin. Just to get me in the system. I don't know at this point whether I will go with surgery or not. I do have radiation as a option but they don't offer it here in Ireland. I have joined a support group for acoutic neruoma on the Internet which I find it very informative. So I have lots of time to decide unless symptoms gets worse.

Nothing much really has happen since my last post. Or maybe they have and I just forgot them LOL I started getting e-mails from some old friends of mine that I went to high school with, it seems rather strange and exciting at the same time. Strange because why would they want to talk to me after all these years and exciting to catch up on all that has happened. Trouble is I write these big long emails telling them of what is going on in my life, and I get two or three sentences out of them. Either I am a big mouth or their life has been so boring. LOL Go figure???? I really think I am a big mouth.....

Went out to the pub last weekend(first time since October) have 4 pints and a glass of beer and was drunk. LOL Not much going on in the pubs lately. We go to hear the music and get the local gossip. Peter got me a rose bush for Valentine's Day. Well it was after V- day but who cares anyway. We share our love everyday and really don't need some commercial holiday to tell us go out and by something for the one you love. That's the way we look at it anyway. He buys gifts throughout the year. Shows his love daily and I would rather have that.....After having said all that it would have been nice to get a big diamond ring...LOL One of these days.

The sun is shining here today. I should be outside enjoying it, but seems like I just don't have the motivation to do anything these days. I need to have my thyroid checked. I am taking a pill a day but maybe that needs to be increased. It might be that I am more depressed. It is getting close to the year anniversary of my daughter's death and I find myself thinking more about her. About two weeks ago was the first time ever that I dreamed of her and it was so good. I gave her lots of hugs, and I didn't want to quit dreaming. It was like I was with her and we was just hanging out. Grief does get easier with time(even though you don't want to hear it at the time) but you still have this empty feeling in your heart that don't go away. I will post some pics of the funeral

I do have lots to be thankful for and one is the love of a good man and of course my family.

I haven't written her for awhile now. My back is much better now I started back to work Monday wearing my back support,my back was a little sore after 12 hour shift, but felt the back support was really helpful. My job isn't really all that hard. We only have about 21 patients in the nursing home. We have a few that are really heavy. I try to use the methods that are taught to me during my years of nursing. The older I get the more difficult it is to have the strenght that I had when I was younger. Anyway thats the way it is. I am trying now to research another profession that I can get into so I can get out of nursing all together. I have been a nurse for over 25 years. I have worked in hospitals, doctors offices, other nursing homes, for a place that ok's drugs to chemists for medicaid and a place for behavior problems for teenagers. I am just burnt out. Is it all give give give, you get nothing in return. Not only do you give to the patients but also to the people that you work for,and it gets to be too much.

So Peter has came up with this idea to buy lots of things in bulk and sell them either flea market or maket yard that we have, now just have to fiure out what sells and what doesn't. Which isn't easy, right now they have sites that sell grates of suff in England but you don't get to pick your items, well you get to pick what items are on a pacticular crate but not individually. I was thinking more of hangbags,perfume and maybe some kind of house hold item... Thats as far as I have gotten in my thinking process. Maybe this week we can come with some sore of idea. Two minds are better than one so I hear anyway.

As far as my tumor in my ear goes, I am going to take the wait and see approach. I had a MRI recently and went back for a check up on the 31st of this month. It is only 4mm. Which is very small at this point to do anything to, so I am to go back for another MRI in a years time to see if it has grown and will deal with it at that time if it has gotten bigger. This type of tumor usually grow very slow, usually has to get the size of 2.5-3cm before it can cause serious problems. Now of course you can have symptoms before it become as big to cause serious problems. I already have the ringing in my ear. The most serious it can get that is grows and starts pressing on your spinal fluid and you can actually die. I have seen two procedures that can treat acoutic neruomas from this site. Well I can't find a way to add this link as of yet when I do I will add this link incase someone stops by this page and is interested.

I finally got enough energy to take down my Christmas decorations. What was a simple chore took me almost all day. LOL It was the computer breaks I just had to take between cleaning that took so long. LOL All put up for another year. Next year I might not even bother. My daughter in law emailed me and told me that her and my son are planning on coming to Ireland for a visit sometime in the year 2008. A lot of people have actually said they would like to come but haven't showed up yet. The only people that have came was my dear friend of 34 years. She and her husband came 2004. Wow its been about 3 years ago. It doesn't seem that long at all. My sister and her husband has been coming for 2 years now and haven't made it so far. She really has some problem with her son Doug. He is on drugs. She just doesn't realize he is using her right now, because he has never admitting he even has a problem with drugs. She feels sorry for him and tries to help him out. I did that with my daughter so I can't fault her for doing this. This drug problem is very bad and I don't think you ever get it a thought until it hits you personally. You then begin to go over in your head the things that have happen that you thought was a little strange but at the time it just went over your head. So you have your head int he sand most of the time, because the addict doesn't want you to know the extint of their drug use and you just don't ask questions because you want to believe they are living this life that they say they are living. Just a circle......well I am going try to wrte more often, but for now my head hurts.

Since I found out I can add pics this is a pic of my dog Molly, also he pervious pic is of Peter me and Peter grandchildren...

Wow I just found out I can writing in Different colors, show you how well I know this site LOL I got a scam e-mail today. Some person wanting to be my parnter in business. Their mother and father had died when she was young and she had all this money and needed me to help her with a bank account to put all her money in of course I would get 15% of all the money deposited.... I did write back and tell them to get a fucking job. Is there anybody out there that knows where to turn these e-mail into so police can track down thes scammers....

My leg has turned numb well just my thigh and I have a aching in my right hip. I suppose its from my back pain,which I don't have anymore. I guess I will have to call the doc again this week because the aching woke me up last night. I am still taking my pain medication and anti-inflammatories. I just feel like my body id falling apart. I feel I need sunshine, it has been dull here for sometime, well yesterday there was some sunshine, but not enough, no wonder there are some many depressed people in Ireland...

I still haven't made it back to the doctor about my acoutic neruoma, that is scheduled the 31st of this month. So that is something else I have to deal with..... As you can tell I am not as cheerful as I was yesterday. I just don't have the engery... I also found a way to download pics....

I am now listening to my brother in a jamming session in Kentucky thanks to Skype. He and I both have it, since we both have it on our computer he can call me in Ireland and talk as long as we want to and what is good about it its free. So I can listen to his jam session . If anybody reads this skype is a good thing to get. If you have broadband, and even if you don't , I have a friend also lives in Kentucky that just has dail up and she got Skype. Its really wonderful that you can do this and doesn't cost money. So while I am listening to this jam I can type away here.

Nothing much happen today, had to go to the bank and get a bank draft for some medication cups that I said I would get for the nursing home, so while I am off work with my back trying to get all this taken care of, so now the only form to fill out and send off is a form to get paid y the government while I am off work. Boy I need the money i am missing my pay check as of now and with this job we don't get paid for being off sick. Well I guess i could use my Holiday pay but that just wouldn't be right. Maybe this year we will get to take a vacation and have some fun. Last Year was when my daughter died and we had to go to America. I had to make the arrangements so I made most of them from here. She died on March the 19th and her funernal wasn't until the 28th of April. I had to have her cremated in Florida(where she died and her remains shipped to my brother house) I stayed with my brother the entire time I was back there. I think we stayed until May the 10th not sure because my mind was a blurr. She was still married to this guy in Florida but he didn't want to have anything to do with the funernal. He did tell the police (when they visited him to tell him she had died that he would like me to get in touch with him) which I tried calling several times and leaving messages then writing to him(which letter was returned to me, stating didn;t live at this address) I had never met this guy, but did talk to him on the phone. My daughter had told my Mom(her grandmother) after she left this guy that he was mixed up with the Mafia, I am not sure about that, she did tell me that he was a bookie and came from a rich family. Sometimes what my daughter said and what was reality was compelely different. I do know that while they were married she spent money like she did have alot, then she left him. I don't know why because my daughter wasn't in contact with me. While she was married to this person I started asking her questions about her lifestyle she didn't like that and got mad at me and wouldn't speak to me. I really think it was the drugs she was taking even though she denied she was taking drugs. Then one point she was telling me she was going to a pain clinic and they were giving her 6 injection a day, all of this just didn't make since. I am trying to figure out her life but nothing is making sense. I could try to get into contact with people because I do have people phone number off the police report but I just don't' think I want to go there. The so called friends she died with didn't even try to get in touch with anybody. As far as I am concerned she died around strangers. Neither one of her children came to the funernal. I know she wasn't a good mother because of the drugs but she did love her children. The fathers of those two children kept them from going I just know it. They had transportation there, by my sister. I have written them since then no answer back from them. No telling what they have been told by other people. Well there is nothing I can do about that. It does make me mad that her previous husbands can take this personally.

Boy am I rambling on about this. I don't know what triggered this maybe just the thoughts of my brother jamming at his house and going back in thought to the time that I visited there the last time. I was on going on vacation this year...... Have to think of where I want to go. I need to start dinner now so might have time to write more tomorrow.

Today has started out pretty good. My back pain is less, but now the pain has went to my leg. My right thigh gets numb at times. Really weird. I called in work for next week to give me time to have more rest and heal. I usually don't like taking off owrk for so long and end up going back to work before I am suppose to, but have learned thoughtout my working years no one really gives a shit at work, so why go back to work before your ready???? Work will go on with or without you... I am finally taking my own advise I give to other people. LOL Anyway today I posted my application form to become a Irish citizen. I am very excited about that, I have lived here for 5 years(which is the least number of years before you can apply) It usually takes anywhere from 15 months to 2 years for the form to get processed. I don't know why...Maybe they just tell you that so when it does take a shorter period you will be surpised. I work as a nurse and have been in nursing for about 30 years. I have to work in a job that is needed here in Ireland to remain in the country. I have been in a good mood even though I am still in pain. Still haven't figured out to add pics here yet. I need to talk to Peter to see if he knows, but I will experiment first. LOL I bought a dog about 5 months ago a west highland terrier and I would like to put her pic here plus maybe some pics of Ireland and my family. So I guess it will take take time to build this site up. No one has read my blog and I really haven't sent it to anybody to read either.

My second posting can't believe I am actually writing here. Well no one has read my blog as of yet. This week was shit.... I pulled my muscle in my back lifting a bucket of coal had to end up going to the doctor I am going to be off work again this week. I am going to have to get pics for this site once I find out how that is done. lol My partner name is Peter an he is just great. Didn't think I would ever meet anyone in my life time that would suit me and we are so much alike it scares me. Just wonderful at least I have that going for me. My health isn't so good at the moment but people have had worst.

I just got a e-mail from a friend that I went to high school with a long time ago. That was really great hearing from her, I wrote her back and just waiting for her reply, also got a letter from another high school friend. We all use to hang out together.... Its so wonderful earing from them. I haven't heard from people that I thought I would hear from. As I said in my previous post that my daughter had died. People that I expected to hear from just didn't bother their ass to get in touch with me. It just surpises me at the people that I thought that cared just didn't. I use to stress out about this but I figure its their loss. I do stil have alot of anger about my daughter death. First of all I blamed myself you know you ask all the same questions. If only I had done this or that and come to the conclusion that there was nothing that I could have done. Now I am mad at Khristy for dying..hopefull I can deal with that in due time.

This is my first post of my blog that I believe I created about a year ago. Hopefully we all can talk about anything here. Be a support to one another and just have fun. First of all I will tell you a little about myself. I am a 53 year old mom of three(which now of two) it has really been a rough year for me. More about that later. I have moved to Ireland 5 years ago. Orginally came from Kentucky well was borned in Georgia, but spent most of my life in Kentucky. I met this very nice Irish man on the internet and ended up in Ireland to live. We are still together(so who says internet relationships don't last) The reason I only have two children is that my oldest daughter died this pass year. She died of a drug over dose. Very hard for me to get over, knowing that I will never get to see her again. She was 33 years of age. I also found out that I have this condition called Acoutic neruoma which is a tumor in my ear and trying to deal with that. I will try hard to post my feeling of grieve and what i am going through with a tumor. I don't know really how this is going to work with the blog, but really hope to hear from people from all over the world...... I will post more later....