Gee its been awhile since I last posted. I told myself that I wouldn't do this, that I would try to post something everyday.... Then weeks go by and here I am. The good news is that I don't have to have another MRI until next year my tumor in my ear hasn't grown,it is still 4mm. I have been referred to a neurosurgeon in Dublin. Just to get me in the system. I don't know at this point whether I will go with surgery or not. I do have radiation as a option but they don't offer it here in Ireland. I have joined a support group for acoutic neruoma on the Internet which I find it very informative. So I have lots of time to decide unless symptoms gets worse.

Nothing much really has happen since my last post. Or maybe they have and I just forgot them LOL I started getting e-mails from some old friends of mine that I went to high school with, it seems rather strange and exciting at the same time. Strange because why would they want to talk to me after all these years and exciting to catch up on all that has happened. Trouble is I write these big long emails telling them of what is going on in my life, and I get two or three sentences out of them. Either I am a big mouth or their life has been so boring. LOL Go figure???? I really think I am a big mouth.....

Went out to the pub last weekend(first time since October) have 4 pints and a glass of beer and was drunk. LOL Not much going on in the pubs lately. We go to hear the music and get the local gossip. Peter got me a rose bush for Valentine's Day. Well it was after V- day but who cares anyway. We share our love everyday and really don't need some commercial holiday to tell us go out and by something for the one you love. That's the way we look at it anyway. He buys gifts throughout the year. Shows his love daily and I would rather have that.....After having said all that it would have been nice to get a big diamond ring...LOL One of these days.

The sun is shining here today. I should be outside enjoying it, but seems like I just don't have the motivation to do anything these days. I need to have my thyroid checked. I am taking a pill a day but maybe that needs to be increased. It might be that I am more depressed. It is getting close to the year anniversary of my daughter's death and I find myself thinking more about her. About two weeks ago was the first time ever that I dreamed of her and it was so good. I gave her lots of hugs, and I didn't want to quit dreaming. It was like I was with her and we was just hanging out. Grief does get easier with time(even though you don't want to hear it at the time) but you still have this empty feeling in your heart that don't go away. I will post some pics of the funeral

I do have lots to be thankful for and one is the love of a good man and of course my family.