You just can't win for losing

I was feeling pretty good yesterday, cleaning the house, my handbags came in and they are very good in quality my brother called and actually talk to me and asked how I was doing, things were going pretty good until..... dum de dum dum.......I got an email reply from my son regarding my email that I had written him to go visit his grandmother while she was in town, closer where he was than 200 miles away. She lives in western part of Kentucky and is staying at my brother for a week. So I should have informed him instead of demanding he see her. Which I had in my mind that's whats I was doing, but sometimes my mind and my hands don't do the same thing. Some of his email didn't make sense to me but what I did get is that he will see family when he wants to and he doesn't need me butt in, he even told be the back the fuck off. Ok maybe I did over step my boundaries as a Mother. I believe he has anger issues that he hasn't dealt with if you ask me. When on to tell me that he has a family now ,so ok, we all do. Well I emailed him back and ask him how far does he want me to back off. So needless to say that put a bummer in my day.

I am still cleaning trying to get everything ready for the handbag party I am going to have next week, I have got to the dinning room which I am suppose to be finished with that by now and on to another room. I have had to run some errands today which has put me behind and when you go out here you might as well depend on spending a hour then Peter had a flat tire and had to drive him up the road a bit. which really that didn't take long at all, but it just gets you out of the mood. Well that's my excuse and I'm sticking with it. LOL Can't believe its Friday already..... I might have to wait until the following week to have the party... Or just clean as much as I can and forget it. Cob webs and all.

Be careful out there

Spring cleaning anyone?

Yes I have started the dreaded Spring cleaning. This is not your regular once over we are talking about cleaning down walls ceiling, shampooing carpets, getting thoses dust bunnies in hard to reach places. We burn coal for our heat in the winter and boy does that leave a dirty film about the place.....I have about 5 rooms to clean very good this week, that is if you want to count the hallway as a room. I have started in the kitchen, hopefully will get that done plus the dining room today. I still have to do outside work, which I think I am going to put Peter in cahrge of that because I need the gate up for Molly, so she can roam around free outside, right now I have this make shift ply wood that I lean against the wall and put a big plant that I have in a pot to keep it from falling down. I am going for, getting the house ready for a handbag party sometimes next week in my house. Since I have became so addicted to being on the computer to get thoughts out of my mind, I find myself being drawn back to the computer ever once and awhile. Its saying Cindy come play with me. LOL Thoses darn voices in my head...

It has turned out to be a sunny day today off and on, it was hailing this morning. The weather does change very quickly around here. I fell like I am not in Kanas anymore. and the voices in my head are saying follow the yellow brick road. LOL No really the voices are telling me to get off the computer and get some work done around the house. The pic is of Molly Malone she tart with a cart. LOL Hence I named my dog after her.....

Have a great day

Time goes so fast these days

Maybe its because I routinely do the same things day after day is the reason time is going fast. Today I broke rountine I went into town and did my shopping. Well I did take home the office key with me and had to return it today, so that did give me motivation to get off my ass. LOL so maybe since I did that the week will go slower for me. My mom is over at my brother house this week. They both called me today on Skype today. They seem to be enjoying there visit, I hope it last until she gets home. LOL Sometimes my Mom can be a little too much and sometimes we have all been a little impatience with her. I am glad she is in good health and still shopping at the age of 78.

Our handbags should be in this week, I think I have mentioned in my earlier posts that we are starting a handbag business and costume jewelry. The jewelry came in Monday of this week and it really looks nice so we are hoping the handbags lives up to the pics. I am going to have to start cleaning the house this week for a party I will have when the handbags get here. I am thinking about next week hopefully I can get it together. I am going to invite a few people over and hopefully I will be able to book more parties from there. Start with home parties and see how that goes. So it is clean clean clean for me ...... I still have to decide what prizes and how many prizes that I will offer. Some more pics this time they are pics of Peters first vist to Kentucky when we first met in person. Enjoy.... also I have the pics of my two daughters. Khristy is the one with her arm crossed and side view of Jessica.

Another Day

I have joined several forums over the net this week. One is grieving parent and te other one is about drug addiction. I have gotten several replies so for and have contacted the people that have replied back. I thought I needed this at this time in my life. right now I feel like I am going throught the grief all over again like it happen yesterday. Its been a year and I feel I like at the beginning. Peter explained it to me of what he thought it might be because I was thinking I was going backwards. He told me is what he thinks, that when it first happen I was in shock and wasn't ready to deal with any of it, I just accepted what my mind was telling me, now without the shock and first anniverary came around I am dealing with it and I feel so mad.....So I thought I better talk to some people that have been through this and share my story , they share theirs and maybe something good will come out of all this. It is getting late and I realize I didn't post in this for awhile and still wanted to keep this blog going even though no one is reading it but me. LOL It will be used like a diary that way I can go back and see what I ws feeling on a particlar day.

I have got the flowers on Khristy's grave but haven't planted them as of yet. I have been doing some outside work because it has been nice this week. Gosh I am smoking too much I can tell because it gives me heartburn when I do, I need to get to bed. Another pic in Ireland to share.

I woke up alright

These last few weeks(lets say months) has been hard on me, but the weeks has been the roughest. I actually wanted to cut heads off people and piss down their necks. I was so irritable I think every body at work must be mad at me because I have been on everybodies case, well at least they are quite people so they wouldn't confront me anyway. I guess all this is part of my grief process. I guess I am still mad for Khristy's dying. I blame it on the drugs, but you just want to blame it on somebody that is real. Peter is staying away from me, cautionally giving me hugs to help me through all this, He doen't really know how to help, but I would say hugs is very good.

This morning I woke up some what normal I even went out to the village, with the dog Molly....I did find myself getting irritable trying to get this stuoid gas cap off the car. I have this locked gas cap and I haven't been able to work it since I got it. Peter finally had to get it off before I went into the village to get gas, the gas cap now is off my car, because I am just tired of dealing with it. I didn't have to get a locked gas cap because my car already has a lock on the door to get to the gas cap so that makes it double locked it has been a pain in the ass ever since. Why did I get a locked gas cap???? Well I thought thats what I was suppose to do, misunderstanding on my part, for my driver test(which I failed) but as I found out it didn't have to have a lock on it. Oh well have calmed down after that now decided to relax for the rest of the day by the fire and play my computer games.....

I still haven't got to plant the flowers on Khristy's grave, because it was nasty weather Sunday and I worked Monday and Tuesday. So now this is my first day off and the weather isn't to great today. You know I even got mad at my brother. I called him I think it was Sunday and all he could talk about was himself and played the guitar. Normally I wouldn't mind, but he didin't even ask me how I was doing. I guess I expect everyone to remember when Khristy died and act like they care. You know of all the people I expected to care didn't, and I got a card from my dear friend Joyce playing a song called I'll be there which just brighten up my day. She is such a good friend. Everybody seems so self centered. Well my brother, son and sister..... Its got to be all about them or they will just forget you. Thats the way it goes I guess maybe next week I will feel different. Maybe I am just too caring about other peoples feelings and I expect too much from other people.

Oh yeah we have bird eggs from one of the canaries. Peter has paired them up about maybe a week or two ago has found some that he thought was female that they were males. LOL Its really hard to tell, well the only way is that the male sings. The females make their little nest, and we have one female that is very posh about her nest looks like she took a designer course. LOL I will try to take some pics when the little birds hatch. right now I don't want to up set their mating. LOL

Opps just realized I posted almost he same pic on my last post. Well I didn't get to neither the parade in Town Tipp Town or the pub last night. I did recharge the batteries on the digital camera. No new pics as of yet. I didn't get the plant the flowers on Khristy grave because it snowed, rained and hailed most of the day. So no outside work for me. I work tomorrow so I hope I feel better than I do now. I have a headache that I seem to not get rid of all day. Have tried to call family in USA no one at home except my brother. don't get my wrong I love my brother, but sometimes he can be so self centered. He didn't even mention how I was feeling today, jsut wanted to jam on his guitar to me. I had to cut the conversation short because I was really getting mad at him. I think it was mostly me. I feel like I want to get into a fight with someone. So really not a good day to talk to anyone. I have been playing computer games to get my mind off thinking about what was it like for Khristy her last hours on earth. I will never know, because all the people she died around just left without getting in contact with me. Oh well thats the way of a drug addicts life. I just wished it hadn't have happen. It's so sad.

I just recieved a email from this guy that I went to high school with and haven't heard from him in over 3o years. I am really surprise that people want to get in contact with me after all this time. It makes me feel good that people want to get to contact with ME after all these years. Well St Patrick's Day they is almost here. Last year we went to Dublin for it. If you come to Ireland during this time of year Dublin is the place to go if you want to see a big parade. Last year was cold wet and windy so that will be the last one we will be going to in Dublin. Very crowed and if you don't get there early you will be looking over peoples head and trying to get a pic and believe me you don't get very good pics doing it that way. I actually saw people bringing ladders on the train to stand on during the parade. Which wasn't a bad idea if you wanted to lug a big ole ladder around with you. I am going to settle for going to a local parade in Tipperary Town this year. Then the pub for later that night. A good band is playing at the local pub in Bansha call Sons of Guns. They play mostly Rock and Roll. I will try to get them to play Sweet Home Alabama for you Moon and you will be here celabrating St Patrick's Day in spirit.

Sunday I will be planting flowers on my daughters grave. Today I brought some pink roses and some other pink flowers. Pink was her favorite colors. I just hope it doesn't rain. Tomorrow I am going to get the ground ready like pull some weeds and clear a spot for planting. I am playing computer games to get my mind off it so I don't get so depressed. I did manage to out today, but had to drag myself to do it, once out it wasn't so bad. The sun was shining, I just wanted to keep on driving and end up getting lost somewhere in Ireland.... But I have a dog and Peter to think about so I can't go getting lost..... Just sometimes I feel that way then it passes. I will post some pics of last year St Patrick's Day.

Be careful out there

My bach has been hurting a lot this week. I have had to start back on my pain pills. I hate to take pills and this upsets me because I thought my back was getting better as each day went along. I can't remember anything I have done to cause by back to start having pain again. My muscles hasn't went into spasms as of yet but its on the verge... People that have back problems will know what I am talking about. This pic was taken somewhere in Ireland I think in county cork....

Some bad news one of Peter's birds died last night. We believe he was a old bird and it was his time to die anyway. He was sick about two weeks ago and recovered but just didn't make it this time. They are all Irish canaries he is raising I will post a pic as soon as I get the camera up and running I still haven't recharged the batteries to the digtal camera.... I will post another pic of Molly the dog, hopefully I will take more. I have been promising my son pics of around the house for along time.

I got a St Patrick's Day card from my Mom today, I had sent her a card for her birthday plus Mother day yesterday. I am early for both but I wanted to make sure that she got it in plenty of time. Mother's Day come in march in Ireland so that reminds me that Mom birthday is in the same month plus Mother day is in May in the USA so that just reminds to send for both days.... My dad aslo died in this month as well as my daughter. Gosh it will be a year this coming Monday when she died.... This Sunday I will planting flowers on her grave here, I hope it doesn't rain. I hope all this makes sense to people that is reading it. It funny how one thought leads to another. Of course I am typing anything that comes into my mind.

Finally got the pic of Rachel posted to this site. If anyone else sends me pics be sure they are in jpeg format. I think that is the reason I couldn't post the other one. Anyway this has been another lazy Sunday. I am trying to get a collage together of handbags and costume jewelry to sell I have been looking at sites that I can buy whole sale, Now I just need to know what is going to sell. We are going to sell them here in town and at car boot sells. I really wished yard sales would catch on here. That would be great to have them for sell here and wouldn't have to go anywhere. Renting a place in town to open up a shop would be too much over head at this point.

I haven't been feeling well today, have this head ache that I seem to can't get rid of, plus going back to work tomorrow and knowing I probably won't get much sleep tonight is enough to give anyone a headache.LOL I have this new computer game called Diner, I think I am going to turn into a cartoon character and that will be the end of me living in reality. LOL The dog show I was telling you about Crufts in England finished up today a Tibetan terrier got best in show. Which was a very beautiful dog My dog comes from a pedigree line that has won at this show which is the world largest dog show.

Peter has been taking care of his birds today and getting them ready for breeding. He has already paired them up and I think St. Patrick's Day is going to be the day he lets the males in to the females cage. I can't wait to see them hatch and take care of their eggs and little birds. It's something that I have never seen before and with Peter enthusiasm has made me get more interesed. Well I hope everyone has a good week ahead of them.......

Looks like rain again, the sun was shining for awhile this morning and Molly the dog got to play outside a bit. She is still afraid to stray away for the front door at times and she keeps coming back to the door to make sure I am still there and everything is alright in her inside world. I am going to have o give her a bath this weekend(at least she will let me do that) Next week I will have to take her to get her nails trimmed, what a pain if she would only let me do them I could save some money......

I still can't get the pic of baby Rachel to come up on this site. I am doing the same thing that I do to get other pics up, but it just keeps giving me a blank pic as you can see from my last post. I guess I am going to have to get Peter on this and see what is going on. Oh he just loves it when I ask him to help me out on the computer after I have punched almost every button I can. LOL

Today is house work day. How boring can that be?????? Another nursing story, that will bore you even more. When I just started out in nursing. I went to school for a medical assistant and landed a job at a doctor office in the small town where I spent most of my adult years. I was going in to give this guy a injection. By that time I was very experienced in giving injections. So ask the guy to pull down his pants because I had to give this injection in the hip. W ell he dropped his pants to the floor and his underwear went as well lo and behold I had two eye balls staring at me. He had tattooed two eye balls on each cheek of his butt. I had to hold in the laughter until he was gone. Then there was the time I was working as a nurses aide at the local hospital. We had to go through a nurses aide course(this was before I started working in the Doctor office) One day one of the patient that was expecting to die. Well she died while we were doing our bed bath on her. I went out to tell the nurse and she came in and said she was dead and ask us to remove her IV and get her cleaned up. Well this was the first time I had seen anybody die so we both just stood there looking at this person. Then we decide she was still alive because we thought we saw her chest move up and down so we both grabbed a wrist to check her pulse, while we was doing this we just broke out in nervous laughter. Of course she was dead we were just two naive girls since then I have seen plently people die.......

Peter was a grandfather again in February. Her name is Rachael Erin. We haven't seen her in person but the proud parents sent us photo's that I going to share. Peter has 5 children in all, the one that just had the baby has married a Yank(as they call us over here) and moved to USA. We have never had the chance to met her new husband either. They both live in Louisiana. She went over there first to work on Airplanes(I think she x-rayed different parts to see if it was safe to fly) anyway she was in California then was transferred to Louisiana. She visited us at my brothers when we were there for Khristy's funeral, but her husband didn't get to come because his mother was having surgery, Hopefully we will get to visit the baby before she graduates from high school. So congrats again to the new parents.

Today is errand day. Usually on my first day off I spend time playing my games on the computer kind of mellowing out, then the rest of the week I try to do some house cleaning and go to the store things like that boring stuff. I was thinking alot about what I should do about with my self when Khristy's anniversary date of her death Asking different people what I would they do, of course as always Peter came up with a better Idea, this ear will fall on a day that I am working. So I didn't know whether to stay at home go to work knowing I would proably be depressed anywhere I was or maybe not I really don't know how I would feel....I do know that I have been thinking about her daily since December. So he duggested that I go into work and if I can;t handle it I can always come home. Also the Sunday before I should plant some flowers on her grave. I have a small grave for her in my yard, I brought back some of her ashes to Ireland so I could have a part of her here. I know its only ashes and not the real Khristy but I do feel closer to her since I did that, and very glad I thought about doing that through my greif. So I feel good about that suggestion and looking forward going to pick out the flowers to plant. I will try to take a pic when I am finished. I owe my son pics of around the house. He has told me months ago he would like me to take pics of the house and ouside area so he can get a better pictre in his head of what everything looks like when I talk to him about what we are doing around the house. So thats about it for today.

Hey be careful out there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another funny story. The first time I came to Ireland my brother came with me I was scared to fly since this would have been my first time flying so he said he would go with me and help me over the stress plus he could have a vacation himself. On the flight over(which was crowded) I took some pills called ativan to help me relax, I slept most of the flight, would wake up again then doze back to sleep this happen off and on for 8 hours. My brother was talking to this guy next to him off and on I think he was going to Italy for business. Anyway when it came around to the meal time my brother had to wake me up in order to eat. I don't remember too much about the meal but I sure did love the corn bread. It really wasn't corn bread at all it was some spice cake, but I kept on saying to my brother boy do I like this corn bread and if you don't want to eat yours I will have it, he kept on trying to correct me that it was indeed spice cake instead of corn bread but I wasn't listening in the groggy state of mind that I was in finally after 10 minutes of me saying I like the corn bread and can I have his and him trying to tell me its spice cake he just said here take my corn bread. Don't I sound like a joy as a flying companion????? On the same trip.... When we landed in Amsterdam(yes we went past England and Ireland to get to Ireland and it was cheaper doing it that way, go figure) I was dying for a cigarette ,all the announcement was in different languages and we had to walk all the way to the end of the terminal to catch our next flight to Dublin as we was walking I was trying to figure out where the smoking areas were in the airport my brother didn't want me going off somewhere until we found our gate to catch the next flight. Kind of like a hurry up and wait situation. When we got to the gate we had plently time for the next flight, but I didn't see anywhere to smoke and I didn't see anyone smoking. By that time I was ready to rip somebody's head off, so I went into the bathroom to have my cig thinking that if I got caught the only thing I could do is act stupid and at least I would have had a couple of drags to satisfy my nicotine craving. I was so hasty to get my first drag I forgot to lock the bathroom stall. All the sudden while I was sitting on the commode with my pants down smoking on my cig a man came in to clean the bathroom opened up my door. My mouth dropped his mouth droppped and we just looked at each other it was only seconds but seemed much longer. He closed the door saying sorry and when I finished up I went to where my brother was sitting. Told him about what had happen... Both of us started laughing our heads off, finally I looked around there was hardly anybody in the airport where we was and said what the hell Amsterdam has seen my ass so might as well light up one and I did... Oh God I have another story. This is the same trip. Its when we started out from the airport in Lexington...

I had worked night shift the previous night and didn't go to sleep(maybe that also had alot to do with me sleeping on the flight) Anyway our tickets showed 2;30 pm for our flight time. Well we lived in Frankfort which is about 40 miles from the airport we knew that we had to be there about 2 hours early. So it was around 11;00 we was riding around on the way to the airport trying to figure out where to eat breakfast, we couldn't decide and thought well why don't we just go to the airport and check in early and we can eat there. Now mind you that Lexington is a very small airport it has 4 gates and thats it.....We were there to catch a plane to Detroit then to Amsterdam then on to Ireland. Ok we got up to the desk and the guy says why did you wait so long to check in, and we both said what I thought we were here early enough. He said the plane was ready for take off. Now this was post 9 11 so you were checked very good with everything you had on you. Plus there was armed army personal standing around every where. Our tickets had been misprinted. They forgot to add the 1 in front of of the 2;30 so the guy says he would check us through real fast and call the pilot to hold the plane. We were checking everything and he told us to go to gate 2 (I believe it was) so we took off in a run, not too many people were in the airport at that time, we really didn't know where we was going so we thought run upstairs ,not there, ran across to the other gate not there either, so here we go downstairs. Wouldn't you know it it was the last gate we ran to, I can imagine the people looking at us running from place to place carrying our carry on luggage . purse ,camera bag and saying what idiots.

I am probably driving ya crazy with changing colors, but I get bored. LOL I have a funny story to tell about when I first came to Ireland. At least I think it is funny I still laugh about it at times now. Anyway, In Ireland and I think England also uses what they call brown sauce on their sandwiches rashers or bacon. Might have it in the USA but wasn't familiar with it. We were spending the night at a bed and breakfast in Kinsale(Which is beautiful) We had to go next door the following day to get our breakfast. I had too much to drink the previous night and had forgot my glasses. I order coffee and when it arrived I like sugar and cream or milk to put in my coffee. There was packets of different stuff on the table. I am use to just .having the regular pink packet of sweet and low or regular sugar on the table which is white. Talking away to Peter I pick up this brown packet which I thought was the brown sugar(which they have on the table here) as I was opening up the packet and poring in into my coffee I just happened to mention to Peter oh they have liquid brown sugar and it happen so fast Peter didn't have the chance to say anything I was taking a sip of what I thought was brown sugar in my coffee. It turned out to be the brown sauce I put in my coffee. The embarrassing part as we were both laughing after realizing what I had done, is telling the waitress I needed another cup of coffee because I had put the brown sauce in the one I had.....Oh those America's you gotta loves us....

I swear this year as I was watching a movie that was made in Ireland that in one part through out the movie they had to have the brown sauce to put in their tea....Peter and I just laughed and swear the waitress must of told everybody about this and it got around...LOL

Have a great day

I am going to have to proof read my rambling here, because when I read then after I have already posted I find I have so many typo. I hope you get the gest of what I am trying to say regardless of the typo's .

I have finished my two days of work and find I am mentally drained. Sometimes patients can be so draining. All I do is give give give and when I don't do exactly what the patient wants I get called a fucking bitch. Well at that point I just loss it. Let me start at he beginning. I have this patient at the nursing home that is a schizo. Which she told me at one point that a plane had fell on her head. She was in the royal army. So maybe she has something there. Well she gets obessed about something and she will drive you crazy. I have tried to direct her to the sitting room so she can socialize with other people but she says she is scared of people so she is content on pacing back and forth like a caged animal. She smokes and if you would let her she would smoke continuously. We have cut her down to 6 cigs in a 12 hour period. Cigs are so costly here and her daughter that lives in England and only sends money for certain amount of cigs for her. Well trying to explain that to her numberous times just seemed useless. Pacing asking for cigs and pacing some more, asking for tea coming in the nursing office and getting cigs when I said it wasn't time while I was taking care of other matters. So she ask me for a cig and I gave her one explaining she only have three more left and if she smoke them up before bedtime she wasn't getting anymore. Oh yeah also I have to get on her while she is smoking we have this smoking area she has to go to and can not just walk around smoking. Just one of the rules you have to follow. So I went to check to see after I had lit the cig for her to see if she was where she was suppose to be, well she was there but no ash tray, which she mentioned to me so I told her I would go get one, I turn to go thats when she calls me a fucking bitch. So I got up in her face and told her that was a very rude thing to say and I didn't like her calling me names( LEts face it sometimes I can be a fucking bitch but I wasn't about to let her call me one LOL) So after having my say I just went to get the ash tray put it on the table and walked away. she came to me moments later and said she was sorry for calling me names. The she got obsessed about not being able to pee......AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH

I am so glad I have finished up my work week....I have stories I should post here from my nursing career. Right now I just need to mellow out so maybe in next posting I will share some of the nursing stories I can remember...I am getting tired so will write hopefully tomorrow. This is to my brother I believe I gave you my site here so what haven't you made any comments.... I know your on the computer alot. I will have to start writng stories about you then maybe I will get a comment or two. LOL

Have fun out there and by all means be careful

THIS WEEK END HAS BEEN A GOOD ONE i DID FINALLY GET TO PLANT MY PRIMROSE PLANTS IN MY WINDOWS BOXES BETWEEN THE RAIN. CLEANED THE HOUSE ALITTLE. NOTHING REALLY NEW TO ME. I DID GET GET TO SEE THE ECLIPSE OF THE MOON USUALLY WHEN THAT HAPPENS HERE IT IS CLOUDY. MY DIGITAL CAMERA NEEDED THE BATTERIES CHARGED AND I DIDN'T KNOW IT SO I DIDN''T GET ANY PICS. I GOT PICS OF MY COUSINS HOUSE WHICH HER AND HER HUSBAND IS SELLING AND MOVING CLOSER TO THEIR DAUGHTER AND GRAND CHILDREN. VERY NICE HOUSE. THEN WAS EMAILED SOME PICS FROM A FRIEND IN CANADA WITH ALL THE SNOW. I HAVE FINALLY STARTED TAKING MY DOG MOLLY OUTSIDE. I AM A POOR TRAINER, I THINK SHE IS TRAINING ME. SHE IS STILL YOUNG SO MAYBE THEIR IS HOPE FOR HER YET. I WAS GOING TO ENTER HER IN DOG SHOWS BUT I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO GO ABOUT IT. I MIGHT ENTER HER IN THE LOCAL DOG SHOW THAT WE HAVE IN BANSHA EVERY YEAR. SHE HATES TO BE GROOMED AND IT IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO EVEN CLIP HER TOENAILS.....

IN THE PREVIOUS POST i DID MENTION THE DEATH PENALTY, I AM NOT FOR DEATH, BUT I THINK IF A STATE HAS IT THEN IT SHOULD BE USED. I DO HAVE MIXED FEELING ABOUT CHILD MOLESTERS, CAN'T SEE THEY JUST JAIL TIME FOR THE CRIMES THEY COMMIT AGAINST CHILDREN. I BELIEVE IF THEY COMMIT ONE CRIME AGAINST A CHILD THEN THEY SHOULD BE LOCKED UP FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES, THEY SHOULD GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO HURT ANYMORE CHILDREN. I THINK EVERY STATE SHOULD SUPPORT THE JESSICA'S LAW. WELL THATS ENOUGH OF MY SOAP BOX FOR NOW.

I AM GOING TO HAVE TO GET TO BED BECAUSE I WORK TOMORRROW, IT SEEMS LIKE EVEN THOUGH I AM OFF FOR 5 DAYS THEY SEEM SO SHORT...MAYBE NEXT WEEK I CAN GET TO DO MORE OUTSIDE WORK. I FELT THAT MY BACK WAS SORE SO I HAVE TO USE MY BACK SUPPORT EVEN WHILE DOING HOUSE WORK LIKE MOPPING AND SWEEPING. I AM GOING TO HAVE TO BE REAL CAREFUL IF I DON'T THEN MY BACK WILL START HURTING LIKE IT DID. JUST NEEDS MORE HEALING TIME. MY LEG IS STILL NUMB BUT I AM GETTING USE TO THAT. ONLY MY THIGH AREA OR OTHER WISE I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO WALK. ALSO WITH MY TUMOR I HAVEN'T NOTICED ANYMORE SYMPTOMS, WHICH IS GREAT.

I AM GOING TO BED NOW, GOOD NIGHT

Well I tried it and it tranferes alright but didn't come out the way I thought it would. I thought I could move it around like I can at this other site. Oh well will keep trying. I met this girl from England today on the Internet and she also plays Guild wars we have exchanged our characters names that we have the only thing we have to do is get them up on our guild wars friends list then we can play together. It is really neat how you can do that. I sometimes play with my son and his wife that lives in the USA. They haven't played the game for along time, matter of fact I haven't heard from them in awhile, I tried calling them last weekend but no one was at home and I didn't call back. I did talk to a friend of ours that had to moved to America and got himself married. He met her on the internet and she had been over here several times. So they seems to be settling down to married life and I think he is getting getting the hang of Anerican life. I know I had a hard time adjusting when I moved to Ireland.

Today I didn't do anythign I set out to do wekk I did water my inside plants, it was raining so didn;t get to work outside, and thats really what \i wanted to do. Damn weather. Well I am in Ireland and it does rain alot here. So I have to get over it....

I am trying something new so please bear with me. I am trying to transfer the stickers that I bought from another site on to this one. So I know that it worked but I didn't post anything now I am going to post this and see if the pics stay where they are or go away. I will write more later. Once I get through playing around with this thing, Cheers