A New Year just around the corner

Christmas is over for another year. I must say it was a very quite one, and I did enjoy it that way. I had to work on Christmas day which wasn't too bad. By the time I got off I didn't want to talk to anybody(usually I call my relatives in the USA) I just went to bed not too long after I came in stayed up to talk to Peter for awhile and that was about it. Peter's daughter didn't show up until today. We thought she was suppose to come yesterday but her and her boyfriend went out partying in Limerick and stayed there for the night. We had put off Christmas dinner until Friday so said what the heck we'll just go ahead and fix it as planned. Which was really nice. Peter usually cooks the Christmas dinner each year with me helping with the veggies. He makes a wonderful pawn salad and homemade mushroom soup. We had pork roast for the meat and I made a apple cake for desert.

I did manage to call my mom and sister yesterday and I called my daughter today. I guess I should call my son sometimes before I go back to work. My sister and he her husband was drunk so we ended up talking for almost two hours about(who knows now) LOL My daughter was in a very talkative mood so we ended up talking about 2 hours also, it was nice just hearing their voices drunk or sober. LOL Oh my brother called me on Christmas so I didn't have to call him that is the first for him. I usually end up calling him first.

I find this year worse with missing my daughter that died. I can't believe it will be two years in March since she passed away. I am getting through this but some days or worse than others. There is not a day goes by that I don't think of her. She had a great laugh, I miss her hugs...Sometimes I think it would be wonderful if this was just a dream. One day at a time.

Merry Christmas to everyone

Santa has came to visit and left his head behind. OH MY!!!!!!!!

Happy Christmas every one. These are some of the pics I took around the the house of this years Christmas decorations. I chose to have a small tree because our living room is so small.The fireplace is always a cozy spot for those cold winter nights.

The next pics are of the work Christmas party. Some of the people I work with....

Breda, Mary and Bernadette.

A pic of the Irish coffee I was drinking. The first time I ever had it and loved it. So much that I have shopped to make my own at home. LOL We are planning on a quite Christmas at home. I have to work both Christmas Eve and Christmas. So after work I am going to relax by the fire and drink my Irish Coffee until I get comfortable numb....

Happy Christmas and New Year

Just Chilling on a Friday Night

Staying in with the fire going in the fireplace and watching T. V. with David Grey singing This years loving ,can't get no better than this. I have finally addressed some of my Christmas Cards for this year and my creeping Christmas is still creeping. To tell everyone the truth I am not enjoying this Christmas season this year. I don't know what it is I can't actually put my finger on what is wrong, but I feel like the Grinch this year. I just couldn't be bothered. I hope as time goes on I will be in a better mood. I guess it all comes down to it that I am a giving person and don't have much to give this year. I know it doesn't make any difference to people but it put me in a bind since I like to give.

I would like to reflect about the past year since the fire is lit and I feel so cozy. The jewelry business we started this year was a good idea and I think it is going to get bigger as we go along and once we get it on the web I think it will be better than we could imagine. I ended up getting a raise at my job before the first of the year as previously thought. I have filed for my Irish Citizenship. I did fail my driver test, but I have good news on that. I had to get a driver instructor to take some lesson from because I thought to get rid of some bad habits that I have learned in the past... Anyway the driving instructor was the son of one of the nurses I work with, well he is now training to be a driving tester so he will test us. His mother and me(since we both failed) LOL I will wait to sign up in order to see where he will be working as a driver tester. In Ireland you can test in any town that is on the list whether you live in that district or not. My dog that I got a year ago September is a joy to me and become a part of the family. I have become a computer game addict but we want go into that at this time. LOL I found out that I hae a tumor in my ear and am follow up on that, I find as I get older I can't do the things I use to do when I was in my thirties or forties for that matter I don't know if that is a good or bad thing. There is some things I don't want to do that I use to do. I am still grieving over the death of my daughter and will always, but am getting on with my life. I don't want to be the kind of person to let her death just ruin my entire life. I don't know if that is selfish or not, but I have seen people that just can't get pass the grieving stage and get on with their life. Of course I think of Khristy every day but I can't let it get me down. I have to go on and not give up. There is more I am sure I have done this year to reflect on but just can't think of them at this time. Since I am talking about reflections I thought the pic is appropriate me seeing a reflection of me in the mirror. Peter took the pic several years ago I think it was on his first visit to see me in 2001.

Creeping Christmas

I do this every year. I start after Thanksgiving or the first of December gradually added Christmas decorations. So we started calling it creeping Christmas. I have to rearrange things in the sitting room to make room for the decorations because our sitting room is so small we can't have my regular stuff along with Christmas decorations all in the same room at the same time. Each day I add a new Christmas item(which has been stashed in a trunk. waiting for the creeping Christmas) and take away a item I had in the room to make way for the Christmas item....Sounds very complicated???? Well sometimes have fum with this and sometimes its just a complete hassle depending on my mood. LOL So officially creeping Christmas has arrived.

We had another jewelry party at this person house Friday and it was a big hit. Still haven't made enough money on the business this Christmas season. We are going to a craft fair located in the village where I had the party Friday. That will be December 16. Our Christmas Party at work is going to on the 14 this time we are going to have dinner at a pub and music afterwards which I think will be a lot better than just having a meal in a restaurant like we did last year. So that well will be busy. Speaking of busy Peter has been trying to set up a web site for our jewelry. I couldn't begin to know what in the world he is doing. We do get together every now and then look over the front page just to see what we want on it to make it customer friendly. It will be awhile before we can add the finished web site. We are setting up to take paypal as a source of payment, I have rejoined Yahoo chat to scan the rooms to see how many Irish people actually are there. LOL Just sort of a survey. When we do get the web site up and working I will send to everyone on my email list. Right now we want to focus on the Irish market and Irish people living abroad to send their relatives that lives in Ireland presents of Jewelry and maybe expand as we go along. Another goal I have for the coming year is opening up a shop in our house. So looks like we are going to be busy next year.

Peter is now looking for a regular job, he has been working as a handyman, doing home improvements. He was a engineer before that, so that's what I mean by saying a regular job. When I moved here he had just quit the job he was doing because they had moved to another city and it would have been too long for him for him to drive. So he started into the home improvement. I used to go on jobs with him at times until I got too tired going to my job and helping him out. Which was a bummer because I really enjoyed us working together. That's the way it goes when you have to have money to pay bills. Anyway the home improvement has decreased this year as the housing industry also, so that's the reason for Peter looking for another job. He should know this Monday whether he has this job that is close by.

I sent everybody in my email list to a site that I had sign into awhile ago. A memorial site for my deceased daughter. Well it cost money to continue the site so I didn't bother doing anything to it or even sending it on, well this week I got a email that they would open up the site for me again for a month only, for free. So that's the reason for the email to everyone. Please go visit the site and light a candle it would mean a lot to me. The pic is of me in 2001 in Louisille, Kentucky. I was taking Peter to the airport for him to go back to Ireland. This is the first time I met Peter in person.

Farmers Friday

All the farmers in Tipperary get together and bring their live stock into town to sell, so we started calling all Friday's Farmers Friday. So on this day I did nothing. My sinuses have been bothering me the last two days and I have not felt much like doing anything. We did manage to have a jewelry party Wednesday night. It was all Polish people and most didn't speak English, the guy that wanted to give it in his house says he was busy at work this week and ends up they we calling people to come view the jewelry as we was setting it up. Everyone was nice, it was just different. We didn't get as much sells as we usually get but he said he would have another one. So that leaves next week then two more parties booked after that, I need to call people but can't get the energy to talk on the phone. Tomorrow going to try to hand out fliers in town to get the word out. Hopefully I will be fit to do that or least go to the store and get some food , Peter might do that while I am getting groceries.

I am off again this week then going back to work the following Monday, I am enjoying my time off but it is making me lazy. Today I didn't get up until 3pm.... That's just not right.... I have been meaning to do so many things and when you don't wake until the day is almost over its hard to get them done. with my sinuses acting up makes me twice as lazy. So I end up playing computer games all day. I am very addicted to them and end up not getting anything done. I act like I am retired already and don' t need the money anymore. LOL

The pic is of the dart in Dublin.

More NIght Shifts

I have worked 3 night shifts one week and another two the next week. So needless to say I hae been oit of touch with what is going on in my life...LOL This is the second night off and beginning to get back into days and getting my life back. I took two weeks off in order to get my jewelry sells up and more booking for home showings. So far I have two parties books, one women (that had a party back in the summer) is going to get back with me. We are also going to book three more nights in Pubs. Maybe more, We'll just have to see how it goes... The first of the year we will be busy trying to get the room downstairs ready for a jewelry shop room. Right now its a bird room. So we have a lot of work that has to be done. Don't expect too much sells on January because usually after Christmas no one has any money to spend.

I feel like my bladder or uterus is falling down a bit. I haven't checked it out so far but feel this pressure. Don't know why I put that in this blog but am feeling the pressure as I am typing so decide to add it. LOL I guess I could get a mirror and try to bend and look at myself but getting older and I don't if my body can bend and stretch as it use to do. So it might have to up to Peter to check and see before I make a appointment to the doctor. He is thrilled. LOL I don't have a gynecologist here in Ireland because I have never really needed one.... Well today is a different day than when I started typing this so all is well with the bladder thing because I don't feel the pressure anymore. It might be from lifting heavy patients. Seems like the older I get the more energy it takes to lift those patients. I men we are talking about 200 plus for some of this patients and they can;t do a thing for themselves,so no wonder things in my body wants to go south...Well thats my story and I'm sticking with it. LOL

I am going to hae to wash Molly this week she is getting so dirty. I don' t think she likes it going to long without a bath, she looks so pitiful at times. Might be my imagination... I think I hae ran out of thigs to say so will close. A pic of me when we visited Peter's Mom in Dublin 2005. Don't ask what I was doing. I take the worse pics.....

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Nellie's Bar Jewelry Showing

Not as much people this time as we had in Heney's, more return customers than new ones. I don't think word of mouth has gotten around as much as we thought it had. Wasn't a complete loss we did some sells(haven't added the money as of yet) We have come up with new idea's for the future and I am just going to have to have more home showings. So its back to calling people and seeing if they will commit to having it in their homes.

As far as my work goes as a nurse, I have talked over the situation at work, and she is suppose to be working it out. We will see when I get back on Monday how much was able to be worked out in that length of time. I also get a raise in Jan. 2008, I thought I would go ahead and wait until then instead of demanding it now because it is more than what I was going to ask for and what is a few more months???? So we will see, Of course I didn't get everything I ask for but hopefully conditions will change for the best. I was pretty much last Tuesday at my wits end and was really ready to quit just right on the spot. Talked it out and come up with a plan, she(my boss) even came back that night to try to get some of the problems straighten out.

I got some pics last night I took them with my cell phone and they didn't look like they came out as good as taking with a digital camera. I haven't downloaded them into the computer. So I might put them up or not. Right now I am waiting for the washer repair man to come and take a look at my washer. It is tripping the main electric switch in the house when I turn it on. So hopefully he can fix it and I don;t have to end up having to get another washing machine.

Pics of jewerly at Heney's Pub

Our first customer, we didn't take any pics of all the people that showed up, it looks rather empty in all the pics. LOL but we had at least 40 people to show up and brought in about 650.00 in sells. Great night. Another party for tonight in Nellie's pub. I will bring my cell phone and take more pics.

A pic of Louise wearing necklace and matching earrings, a bracelet and ring that we sell.

This is Louise that modeled our jewelry that night, she is wearing a necklace and earrings we sell. Louise is a daughter of one of our friends and was one of the candidates for Queen of the Galtee's that we have every year at the Bansha festival in August.

This is the center of the table, there I am again.....lol

This is the layout of the table at one end. Of course yours truly cheesing it up for the camera.LOL I am wearing a necklace and matching earring set we sell. You can't see the earrings because of my hair.

while my guitar gently weeps special edition

Just one of those days

YESTERDAY WAS JUST A BUMMER FOR ME. FOR NO PARTICULAR REASON, I FELT VERY DOWN AND WAS HAVING A PITY PARTY. I JUST DIDN'T LIKE THE WAY MY LIFE WAS PROGRESSING AND THE MORE I THOUGHT ABOUT IT THE WORSE I GOT. PETER REALLY TRIED TO GET ME OUT OF THIS BUT I JUST WOULDN'T HEAR OF ANY CHEER ME UP THINGS. I KNOW I HAVE A LOT OF THINGS GOING AND ITS GOING TO TAKE TIME TO GET THE JEWELRY BUSINESS OFF THE GROUND, EVEN THOUGH IT IS DOING BETTER THAN I HAVE EXPECTED.....

I JUST GOT OFF 2 (12 HOUR SHIFTS) THINGS AT WORK AS A NURSE AREN'T GOING VERY WELL AT ALL. I HAVE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT I AM GOING TO HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. EITHER TALK TO THE MATRON TO GET SOME OF THE THINGS FIXED OR GET ANOTHER JOB. I HATE TO CHANGE JOBS AT THIS TIME BUT I FEEL DREAD WHEN I GO INTO WORK ANYMORE. THAT'S A SIGN FOR ME THAT IT IS TIME TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT. I HAVEN'T HAD A RAISE IN 3 YEARS. THE OWNER IS VERY CHEAP AND SHE TRIES TO GET BY WITH A LOT. MAINLY NOT GIVING US A RAISE. I AM GOING TO BE ASKING THINGS FOR MYSELF BECAUSE THAT'S THE WAY THEY LIKE IT GO TO THEM INDIVIDUALLY. I HAVE WORKED MY ASS OFF FOR THESE PEOPLE AND ALL THEY CARE ABOUT IS MORE MONEY. CUT BACKS WHEN WE ARE DOWN ON PATIENTS THEN TAKE OFF TO NEW YORK CITY FOR VACATION. WE ARE ALL SUFFERING AND THEY ARE THE ONES GETTING THE MONEY OFF OUR MISERY, I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND PEOPLE LIKE THEM. OH I AM NOT SAYING THEY ARE BAD PEOPLE BUT THAT'S JUST THE WAY IT IS, THEY ARE CONCERN PEOPLE(TALKING ABOUT HE OWNER AND HER HUSBAND WHEN I SAY PEOPLE OR THEY) BUT WHEN IT COMES TO MONEY THEY LIKE IT TOO MUCH... SO I HAVE TO MAKE A CHANGE AND I HATE TO PUT IT TO THEM THIS WAY BUT IF SOME OF THE CHANGES DON'T HAPPEN I WILL HAVE TO GO FOR ANOTHER JOB.

SO I GUESS WITH ALL THIS BEING ON MY MIND, I GOT INTO A VERY BAD MOOD YESTERDAY AND COULDN'T GET MY HEAD AROUND IT. I HATE BEING PUT IN A CORNER. THAT'S WHAT I FEEL LIKE I AM BEING IN A CORNER WITH A DECISION TO FIGHT. I GUESS I WILL HAVE A TALK WITH HER ON MONDAY IF I CAN GET SOME TIME TO DO IT. I AM GETTING OLDER AND JUST CAN'T DO THE THINGS I USE TO WHEN I WAS YOUNGER. WE HAVE SOME HEAVY PATIENTS AND REALLY NEED MORE PEOPLE TO HELP WITH THESE BIG PEOPLE. WE HAVE LIFTS TO GE THEM OUT OF BED BUT IT GETTING THEM PULLED UP WHILE THEY ARE IN BED. WHEN I DO HAVE SOMEONE WITH ME SOME OF THEM JUST AREN'T GOOD LIFTERS THAT LEAVES ALL THE WORK UP TO ME AND MY BACK CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. SO IF SHE CAN'T GET GOOD LIFTERS SHE NEEDS TO HAVE THREE PEOPLE FOR THE SHIFT I WORK. MY BACK IS STILL NOT RIGHT SINCE I HAVE INJURED IT BACK IN JAN. OF THIS YEAR, IT GOES INTO SPASMS EVERY NOW AND THEN STILL GETS SORE WHEN I HAVE WORKED JUST ONE DAY. I WEAR A BACK SUPPORT(THAT I BOUGHT MYSELF) BUT STILL HAVE SPASMS. THEN WE HAVE TWO MENTAL PATIENTS THAT ARE DRIVING ME MENTAL. LOL AND BELIEVE ME I DON'T HAVE TO FAR TO GO. SO ITS A RAISE AND MORE PEOPLE TO WORK SO WE CAN TAKE CARE OF THE PATIENTS WE HAVE PROPERLY. THAT'S REALLY NOT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR, BUT FOR PEOPLE THAT LIKE THEIR MONEY I THINK IT'S GOING TO BE A PROBLEM. SO THAT'S THE DILEMMA I AM IN AT THE MOMENT AND IT IS MAKING ME IN A BAD MOOD FOR SOME REASON. I HATE IT WHEN I GET IN THESE MOODS.

PETER WOKE UP DOWN THIS MORNING AND I WAS IN A SOME WHAT BETTER MOOD, SO HE JUST STAYED AWAY FROM ME, SO WE WILL BE ABLE TO TALK ABOUT IT TOMORROW WHICH THAT'S THE WAY IT IS WITH US. WHEN HE WAS NOT ABLE TO GET ME IN A BETTER MOOD HIS MOOD CHANGED, THAT'S THE WAY I AM ALSO, SO WHEN WE BOTH GET OUT OF OUR MOODS THEN WE ARE ABLE TO TALK ABOUT IT. STRANGE BUT WE ARE CONNECTED SO EMOTIONAL TO ONE ANOTHER THAT ONE'S MOOD EFFECT ANOTHER IN A WAY THAT WE GET INTO A BAD MOOD ONCE THE ANOTHER ONE IS IN ONE, IF WE CAN'T GET THE OTHER PERSON OUT OF IT.

I REALLY HAVE TO GET THE PICS FROM MY PARTY AT THE PUB DOWNLOADED. WE HAVE ANOTHER PARTY ARRANGED FOR THIS COMING THURSDAY IN ANOTHER PUB IN THE VILLAGE CALLED NELLIE'S BAR. ITS RIGHT NEXT TO HENEY'S (WHERE WE HAD OUR PARTY LAST WEEK) WE REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO LEAVE HER OUT, BECAUSE SHE HAS REALLY BEEN VERY NICE TO ME SINCE I HAVE MOVED HERE. MOST OF THE PUBS WERE WE HAVE PARTIES DON'T CHARGE FOR THE ROOMS BECAUSE THEY FIGURE IT WILL BRING BUSINESS TO THE PUB....WELL PARTY ON GARTH.....LOL

Great Night

Well the pub night went very well. The word got around and we had over 40 people to show up. all of then bought stuff. I was very surprised at the turn out. Even had some friends that I haven't seen in about two years to come. Everyone loved the jewelry so we are planning on having another one in the pub in about two weeks time..

We had posters out in town but it was most of the village in Bansha that showed up. I was very impressed. I love to sell jewelry because people are so happy to buy something that makes them feel good and I like being apart of that. This was the first night that Peter was actually part of it up front. Usually he is behind the scene, ordered stock, making up catalog, making jewelry displays. He rather got a buzz off it himself being there tonight and helping out. I will have pics to follow. Some of the people didn't come that we thought would, but that's usually the way it works. We are going to be busy this week restocking and getting ready for out next showing. I am so glad that the business is going so well. We had about 700.00 in sales tonight, for 2 hours work. Not bad at all.

On another note I got a package from my dear mom back in Kentucky she sent me a belated birthday present. Which was a birthstone ring and my sister sent me earrings to match. Plus some other bits and pieces. I called her to thank her for all the stuff. We had a laugh because she had stuck some dental floss in the box she sent me. I told her when I was talking to her and trying to go over the stuff that was in the box, that they sell dental floss here in Ireland... She has false teeth and don't use dental floss so she said she had gotten the floss when they played bingo. Usually she said they bring something from home so people can win so she had won at bingo and that was in some of the stuff she won, she thought that since I had all my normal teeth that she would just send the floss to me...Makes sense since she explained it to me but when I got the box I saw the dental floss in it I just had to laugh. I ask her why didn't they use money in bingo and she told me that would be more like gambling....LOL MY mom you gotta love her.

I think I will call it a night. I think I have had all the excitement I can take for one night. I started reading Stephen King's Gunslinger series. I had read one book along time ago and I am sure once I get to that book I will say I have read that before. LOL But Like I say it's been along time ago and I have forgotten which one it was. I use to read his novels all the time, and when he got hit by a car and was recovering he didn't write very much. I thought I had heard on the news that he had retired, but I think he started writing again. He had finished up the gunslinger series anyway. I have read most of his other books . You either like his work or you don't and I just happen to like his work...I can't even remember the books that I have read throughout the years. I get into these reading moods and I can read a book a night(if stay up all night reading) then I get out of the mood and it might take six months or more before I get in the mood again.

Be careful out there.

Oops I am at it again

Just had another party tonight. This time the owner of the nursing home where I work had a Jewelry party at her house. Only four people showed up, but I got 176.00 in sales. She is going to have another one closer to Christmas. The owner of one of the pubs in going to let us use a room in his pub for displaying our jewelry that is set for next Thursday. Tomorrow we will be busy getting the posters in local store windows and putting them up in pubs, things like that to get the word out. One of the patients at the nursing home , her niece owns a pub in a village near here and I have invited her and hopefully she will have a party in her pub. The business is growing from where we started from. We are able to order more larger supplies to sell on the night. We started off by just having a few samples and customers would have to order out of a catalog and would get their stuff in about a week.

Things have been going pretty good for me. I haven't posted here in awhile. Just haven't felt like typing and really haven't had a lot to say. Noticed I used haven't three times......Now that last line should tell you I don't have a lot to say. LOL

Peter's Mom and sister came for a visit about three weeks ago. Very nice. I cooked them my famous steaks and spare ribs. Which they enjoyed very well. We also went out to the pub on Saturday night of course I drank too many. I don't drink very much and when I do it all goes to my head. Any way we have made arrangements for all of to go to England to visit another one of Peter's sisters. Well we did say we all wanted to go. So I guess that's a start. Waiting to hear back from his sister for all the arrangements. LOL

I am working night shift for Saturday and Sunday this week. Going to try while I am out tomorrow to get a shaver for the dog so I can start trimming her myself...That's going be be a trip. I have found this site on the Internet that gives you step by step instructions on how to trim a west highland terrier. Wish me luck...But I do have months for her hair to grow out before I put her into another dog show.

Molly

This is this best pic of her and her ribbons. She got 2nd, 3rd and 4th places.

The Bansha Show and Festival 2007

I think I have mentioned in previous posts that I was entering my Dog Molly in the local dog show well the pics are in and she won three ribbons out of the four classes I put her in, she didn't get 1st in any of them, but I am happy she got any ribbon....This being her first show and all, I believe she would have done better if I had handled her better, but it was my first time also. So all in all I was very pleased with the results. Now have to find a groomer I can learn from and get practicing on cutting a west highland hair for shows. I plan on getting trimming table with a noose to hold her because she is all over the when I even come at her with a pair of scissors. Just imagine when I come at her with the electric shears. Know wonder people have bolts of lightening shaved in their head, it was a slip of the shears and to cover it up it became a fashion statement. LOL

I also am sharing some pics of the Bansha concert we went to last Sunday. Aslan was the Irish group that performed. Peter took the pics we decided to bring the dog for her to get use to being around crowds so I was holding her or leading her while Peter was taking the pics.... I did get to shake the lead singers hand after the show. They are pretty big band here in Ireland, I don't know if anyone has heard of Crazy World but that is one of their top songs.

I start back to my day shift this coming Monday so maybe things can get back to normal for awhile. We are ready to begin to move forward with selling our Jewelry and handbags....So beginning in Septemer hopefully I will be busy selling and having parties.

Another year older

This past Saturday was my 54th birthday. I would like to thank everyone again for sending me e-mails and calling me to wish me a happy birthday.... I can't believe the years are pasting by so quickly. I can remember when I was younger that I couldn't wait until I turned 21, now 33 years later I am saying what the hell happen????? LOL Looking back I have become a nurse, had three children, two divorces, and have moved to Ireland. WOW That would be the short story, sometimes when I feel typing a lot I will expand more.

This week I got everything straighten out as for as my work permit and residency for another year. The good thing is I don't have to have a work permit anymore because I have a stamp 4 immigration stamp on my passport . I can file for my citizenship next month(which will take 15 months to process) I will be glad when all this is over so I don't have to go through this every year.

My business is going kind of slow this time of year with everyone going on vacation and all. Still trying to get it together as for as a place to show the jewelry so when I can't get a party booked at least I will have that every week to do..... So we have to wait until after the Bansha festival before we can move forward with that because we are planning on having the room in a pub in Bansha.

I have enter my dog in the Bansha show this year. The show is kind of like a county fair in the USA, only its for a day. People bring their crafts, live stock and such to be judged. So they have a Dog show along with all the other events...I have entered her in 4 events so hopefully she will do something. If not, I will forget the shows and just breed her because she is a nice friendly dog and has come from good stock.....

Still working night shifts this month so this has upset my bio rhythm, even on my nights off I don't feel like sleeping at normal times so I usually stay up until 3 or 4 in the morning. Hopefully it will be for this month only..... I don't think I could keep this up for too long, then again I don't like day shift either. LOL Now that I don't need a work permit in order to remain in the country it would be nice if the jewelry business took off really well so I could spend full time on that unstead of having to work as a nurse also, but for now it pays the bills.

Back From Dublin

Had a fantastic time. We didn't begin travelling until the day of the party and it seemed like the minute we got into the car it started raining and rained all the time we were in the car..... Once we arrived it stopped raining and had one shower while we was there..... Anyway everyone enjoyed the party. There was alot of Peter relatives that we haven't seen since his brother Richard's wedding. His sister Marion being one of them. We have made plans of going over to England sometime over the New Year Holidays. She moved to England about 5 years ago. We have beeen saying that we are coming over for a visit one of these days and have never got around to doing it, so this coming December we will be off to England.

The party had around 100 people there or it seemed like that at the end of the night, after we left the pub we went back to Patsy's house and partied until 6:30 in the morning. Getting too old for this..... Then the next night was Peter's mom regular night at the pub so we went out drinking again. On the way home Monday was the prettiest weather we have had in sometime. This week has had off and on sunshine, which is better than rain all the time.

I go back to night shift next week again, one of the nurses took off to America to visit her daughter and we don't really know how long she will be gone. She was very secretive about it all but she is that kind of person anyway, for some reason. Oh well , I am having problems getting my work permit this year, seems like they changed forms and didn't tell my boss until she sent in the old form, so they have sent the form back twice because it needed something else filled out or more information. Its like they read down the page until they get to something they need send the form back then when they get it back finish reading the rest of the form until they get to another place that needs filled out......This has been going on since May. It like give me a break its not like this is my first time getting a work permit, I have been renewing for 5 years. Since I can file for my citizenship I guess they want to hassle me..... LOL

I have posted some pics of the party..... Enjoy The bottom pic is of Peter's sister Marion and her boyfriend they are the ones we are going to visit in England , the first pic is of Aunt Pasty(can you believe she is 70???)

More pics of the dog Molly

By now everyone is getting tired of seeing pics of her I am sure but I just love the little dog. I had put her in a boarding kennel and we are due to leave for Dublin sometimes today. I have got to light a fire under Peter's butt to get him moving. LOL This time I brought warmer clothes because last time I almost froze to death. Now watch it will be real sunny, but I have wised up and packed clothes for both kinds of weather. I will get a bunch of pics and post them when I get back. Also added a pic of Evan and his girlfriend Carrie and some flowers I have planted this year.

We're going to Dublin

I got the shots for the dog and have booked the kennel. One of Peter's sister phoned last night and said we could stay with her. So everything set for a big night out. Well not everything I still have to buy presents and haven't a clue. There is this place that is going out of business in town called the House of Merlin. Usually everything was over priced there but it was a nice place to get gifts for people, I had thought they already went out of business well found out today they still have the shop open and everything is half price....So I am going there tomorrow to check it out. I know they aren't expecting anything but I would being the person I am would love to find something for them.

Here is some pics of the dog that I have downloaded from my mobile phone and pics of other things to tell ya the truth I have forgotten what pics I took until I get into my pics on the computer. Cutting this shirt hope to have pics at the party and will post them....

Yeah we're getting rid of Peter's old car

I bought a car over a year ago, Peter's car has been sitting out back since. He drives the van and I drive my car. We tried to give it to Peter's older brother Adam but things just didn't seem to work. Well Peter didn't do the paper work we needed to get done in order to get the car to them. Days turned into weeks and weeks into months Well we all know the story... Peter's other son wrecked his car and he needed another one so he is coming today with his girlfriend to get it. The car has been setting for awhile so it will need a new battery,plus the inside of the car is a mess.... But he get it free so I hope he sees that more than what it looks like at the moment.

Had a lovely visit with Evan Peter's son and his girlfriend Carrie. First time meeting Carrie and she seemed like a very nice girl. We gave her some of the jewelry we are selling. One bracelet we got by mistake, that had a heart and another little heart, Peter said he was going to save that for Carrie when he met her, because she is pregnant and the two little hearts were for her and the baby. She is due in December. They arrived on Friday and spent the night then after getting the car started took off Saturday afternoon. Cute couple they spent alot of time cuddling on the couch which I thought was very sweet. The beauty of love.

I just realized that this weekend we are going to Dublin and I hadn't perpared the dog with the shots she is suppose to have in order to board her so I have had to do some calling for someone to work for me on Monday afternoon. I called the vet when I thought about it and they only give shots Monday Wednesday, and Friday between the hours of 5-7. I am really cutting it short because they are suppose to have this certain shot called kennel cough 10 days before going into the kennel. So I don't know if its going to work or not. I think I am going to have to play dumb to get out of this one. So we can make the trip to Dublin. I have already schedule to be off work on a Monday following the weekend. Gosh I don't know where my mind is at these days seems like time is just flying by and I can't keep up.

Also who every reads this please start leaving a comment every now and then. I beginning to feel lonely thinking no one is reading my blog..... Very insecure these days for some unknown reason. I have even forgot who all I have sent the link to, Maybe will send to people again for them to read or save to favorites. Well thats the end of my whining.

I bought a Mobile Phone

I am proably the last person on earth that doesn't have one. I decided since my business is expanding to parts of Ireland that I am not familar with, that I needed one to use in case I got lost. Well I just wonder why I didn't get one sooner. Its like a toy with me, I can take pics, make a movie (very short video) text of course plus alot more features that I don;t know about yet....Of course I haven't finished reading the mannal. I only do that when I don't know how to do something. LOL I can see my self someone asking me to call them and I say let me get my book out and they reply well my number is stored in your phone, then I say to them no its my mannal I have to get out to find out how I call you LOL

I have another party tonight. So looking forward to it. We are thinking about other things to expand the business plus be able to keep the cost down. I will post some pics of some of the jewelry and handbags that I took with my mobile phone. Well better go so I can get a bath and my hair dry before tonights party.

Its still raining

It has been raining here since the second week in May. Of course it doesn't rain all the time, but it has rained at least once a day since then. Sometimes we have on and off showers like it is doing today. Which makes you not want to do errands, just stay in for the rest of the day. Or maybe I am just getting lazy..... I have decided to have a jewelry party here at my house again this Friday. this will be the last week of night shifts then I get on my normal Monday and Tuesday 12 hours shifts. Peter has been busy in trying to recruit more people to work selling our stuff. So far two people are willing and I think his sister in Dublin would like to do it but I don't think she has committed, as of yet. We go ahead and buy the starter kit(which is some samples of what we sell) They get 25% of what they sell. Not really bad. We are selling more jewelry than handbags we are still working on that trying to sort out a source that has the handbags once we get the order and don't have a ,got to buy 200.00 minimum to place a order.

I gave Molly a much needed bath yesterday. She likes her baths but I swear she wears me out every time I give her one. She got a hair cut about a Month ago and the girl that did it got it uneven in places, so going to have to even it up some way. I really don't want to take Molly all the way to Limerick(which is about 30 miles away) to get her hair even up for the Bansha Dog show which is next month. I was hoping her hair would grow a little faster than what it has been doing. She looks ok I am afraid if I get in there with the clippers she will really be messed up. LOL Well if it keeps on raining like its been doing it won't matter a bit about what she looks like. The Bansha show is outside rain or shine.

The sun is out so I better grab my moment and get my errands done..... Everybody be careful out there.

Dublin

We went to Dublin this past weekend and have a great time. Well the first part wasn't so great I had to pay 150.00 for a consultation with this neurosurgeon about the acoustic neuroma I have in my ear. wasn't good news or bad news it was just the fact I had to pay out that money for him to talk to me about something I already knew about. I did find out from the hundreds he has treated that I have 30% chance that it won't grow at all 70% that it will grow at a normal rate and I won't have to have anything done for about 12 years now out of those there is a 10% chance it will be a fast growing one..... I get another MRI the last of the year and will be able to tell my growing rate so we are at this wait and see phase and might be for the next 12 years.

Now the fun part we stayed at Peter's aunt house well she has a cottage behind her house that was empty so it had a small little kitchen, bedroom living room and very small bathroom. At first I had booked a bed and breakfast because everyone seem to be going out of town and we didn't have anywhere to stay, unknown to us his aunt was trying to rent the small cottage and thought she had it rented and this guy backed out, so after I had book the b&b I had to cancel the booking because they didn't find out about the guy not going to rent until 2 hours after I had book the b&b....Sounds confusing well it was ....... After we got settled down we went visiting his aunt and cousin and of course his mother which lives right across the road. they are just a fun bunch to be around. From the first time I met them they have treated me like family. Of course went I arrive its always lets slang the yank LOL But think mostly Peter was getting into that this time.... What was up with that???? Anyway Friday night was wine night at his mother's house. I got very drunk, which I don't drink much anymore so I had about a bottle and a half of the good ole grapes and ended up real funny at first, then the last glass started crying in my glass so to speak Peter had to end up around 3am helping me across the street into bed. A good time was had by all. Next day (most of it anyway ) going in slow motion trying to get over the hangover. We did however, went for a drive around the seaside, took a walk on the beach and ordered these most tasty prawns I have ever had. yum yum ...Next day Peter's mom took us out to eat and afterwards we went to grave yard. Yes you heard me right.... Peter had told me that a guy named Phil Lennox was buried in a cemetery near by. He was the lead singer for a group called Thin Lizzy. I don't remember much about the band because they didn't make it too big in the USA, but they were a Ireland band back in the 80-90's. They did have one hit I can remember called The boys are back in town Anyway, he died of a drug over dose about 21 years ago and Peter had told me that people visit the grave and leave all kinds of stuff there like pics jewelry just personal items. Well when we finally found the grave true to form there was all kinds of stuff all over the grave. One women there told us that his mother still visits his grave every day. I got so overwhelmed by the whole experience that I left behind a ring I was wearing at the time. I will post pics of the grave and pics we took around the seaside in Dublin. We are planning on going back to Dublin July 28th because Peter's aunt is turning 70 and her daughter is turning 40 so they have rented out a pub and going to have a big birthday bash.

While there we mixed some business along with our visit, Peter sister and cousin is very interested in selling the jewelry, of course we gave away more than we sold...We wanted to give the pieces that people picked out but his sister insisted on paying for hers because she was buying for gifts so we just charged her what we would pay for them. We got more items in this week along with my order for the two parties that I gave about 2 weeks ago, so tomorrow is delivery day. I am still working night shifts because now nurses are on vacation everything should get back to normal about the second week in July. I will be back to my two 12 hour day shift position.

Gosh is this all I talk about?????

My handbag party Tuesday turned out to be much better than the Friday. I adjusted my approach of keeping all my stuff in one room, and seem to work out very well. The last two parties as for as selling goes wasn't as much as my two previous parties but even with that it beats working at a nursing home..... I do bring home more money for the work I do. Seems to me the jewelry is out selling the handbags so we are focused more on that part of the business. I will get more things as times goes on. I would love to sell scented candles and stands. maybe scarfs, or shawls maybe nice looking picture frames something like that. Peter is getting to work on getting more people to sell for us with them getting 25 % of what they sell. We have 3 people that are interested so now just have to get them to see what we are selling and get them to commit.

We are going to Dublin this week. I have a appointment with the neurosurgeon about my accoutic neuroma so were making a mini vacation out of it. a lot of Peter's relatives lives in Dublin(which is where he is originally from) We always have fun with them all and looking forward to seeing them again. We can't afford to go on a big vacation this year since we have invested money into our business so this week is as good as it gets this year. I am taking off work this week.... So it makes me feel great just to be able to do something. Molly the dog is going into a boarding kennel while we are away. I actually had to book her into one, its costing 10.00/day. I bring my her own food. That's the way unless you have good friends that are willing to put up with the hassle, at this point I don't think I want to impose on a friend to take care of her because I am so picky......so it best that I do it this way at this time.

What is this thing with Paris Hilton???? Who really gives a shit???? American press is just obsessed about it....

Pic is of beautiful sunset in Ireland

I should at this time be a pro

I had my third handbag and jewelry party this past Friday. For some reason the handbags aren't selling as well so we decided at this party that we would put what stock we had we would just have them for sell instead of putting out the whole line of handbags that we have in the catalog, also we had bought some jewelry from another company that we didn't have in the catalog so I put all those items in another room and the had the jewelry samples from the catalog om another room. Big mistake...... I should have kept everything together. While I was in one room someone stole a necklace from the other room. That was the first time that has ever happen, but it really made me mad. You put all this trust in people and then something like this happens and now you have to be on guard. It wasn't really the cost of the item that I was worried about because it wasn't that much and they didn't even get the box that it came in, but its the fact that someone would to it. The girl that gave the party was was so distraught that she offered to pay for the necklace but I wouldn't hear of it. I guess just knowing they have a thieve in their neighborhood would be enough because now they have to be on guard as long as they live there. Well for the people that showed up I didn't get the sales that I thought I would. But sells is sells. Also it proved to me that I can work the night before and get some sleep and have a party the same night. I have another party for Tuesday night and will keep everything on one room for this one. Over all I am still enjoying giving parties and thinking about today just checking out a flea market(car boot sells as they call then here) to see if that would be a option for selling what I have in stock.

Molly ( my dog) got a make over yesterday. I had her cut like a show dog of her breed should be cut. She is just still a pup and her hair hasn't gotten as long as it should but I think she looks pretty good. The back legs more hair was taken off than I wanted but hopefully it will grow out some before August. Going to have to brush her today. Believe me she know that something is going on because now she has this air about her...and its not just gas....LOL If I can get the camera working again I will take more pics of her. I am just going to have to buy more rechargeable batteries. That's all there is to it...... Pic is of the new baby Rachel (Peter's daughter child) Enjoy

The lump on my foot turned out to be ganglion cyst and I really don't know what to make of it, the medication he put me on just puts me to sleep and have been taking as directed(which is alot for me, being a nurse I have a tendency to think I know more than the doctor) Well problem hasn't went away as hoping it would. I still jave the swelling but it doesn't hurt as much, I am not going back to the doctor until it starts causing me a great deal of pain.

My aunt is doing much better matter of fact my mother left to go back to her house after about two weeks taking care of her. My aunt is 86 and has pulled out of more things in her life than I can think of , she is a pretty strong willed person.

There is a Monster in our hallway

Today we went out and bought a lawn mower. Earlier last year we had some of our back yard leveled and grass send sown. Needless to say now we have to mow the grass. So therefore we went shopping for a lawn mower. The poor check out girl, first of all we did our homework before going out into the jungle of shopping in Limerick on Sunday. So we picked out the lawn mower that we thought suited our needs took it up to the check out counter, before we had read a sign that said get your starter kit(which was oil gas can and something else I can't remember) so Peter thought that might be a good idea to check that out. So the check out girl rung up the lawn mower and Peter ask about the start up kit she didn't know anything about that told him to go to the sales counter, well she had already rung up the lawn mower and I was going to pay for it all by credit card,so we were holding up the line as well. While waiting I noticed she had rung up 424.00 instead of 384.00, so I told her the sign had said 384.00 so she might want to look that up while we was waiting. Well she was foreign and don;t think she understood much English. So she just stood they, then I can see Peter motioning me to come there where he was, well we ended up picking up another box and check out counter girl was right. They had the model in the box but not on the floor so without reading what was on the box we just thought it was the one on the floor. After all that was straighten out we left(oh by the way we didn't get the start up kit for 50.00 .} and we didn't go back through the same check out counter. We brought it home, and its huge. It should have some kind of seat on it so you can sit down. LOL There it just sits in our hallway like some looming monster.

I have two handbags parties next week one on Friday and the other the following Tuesday. I talked to this lady that Peter had did a job for today while we was in Limerick he had to return a key to her house that he had while doing work there anyway I bought some samples along and she like the products and the price so she said the last part of June would be good for her. I have other people that haven't committed as of yet...

Pic is of a deer we took in the Smokey Mountains maybe we should have bought a deer or Donkey for the lawn.

Haven't posted in awhile

Just noticed I haven't posted for awhile, so thought I better say something. I went to the Doctor on Monday to check on my Thyroid Blood test, while I was doing that I had him check ou the lump on my foot. Cyst on a ligament. Put me on anti inflammatory (which is making me sleep) So getting more sleep now. Thyroid was doing find so I continue to take my Eltroxin 100mcg daily Still have the appointment in Dublin with the neurosurgeon about my acoustic neuroma. That's all of my health problems out of the way.

We have ordered more jewelry from different sites and they came in this week. I am very satisfied with all of the jewelry so far and still can under price the stores here in town. I have another party for this coming Friday. It will be interesting ,because I am still working night shift and have to work Thursday night... I am hoping I can come home and get some sleep then get ready for the party which is at 8pm. Handbags we seem to have a problem with them the way we are selling them. They go out of stock quickly and if a person orders one form the catalog we have made up doesn't necessarily mean the company we order from will have them when we turn in the order. So we are still in the thinking stage of what to do about that. At this party I am going to just take the handbags that I have in stock and try to sell them. More people are ordering the Jewelry anyway.

My aunt seems to be doing better. I really need to call my mom because she is there taking care of her. To see how my mom is doing, she is not getting any younger and I hope she is not wearing herself out. There is alot of things I should be doing but just haven't done it. LOL

Last weekend one of Peter's daughter came to visit, one of her friends father was having a birthday party at the pub called the foot. Anyway she brought her boyfriend this time. He is a very nice fellow, very friendly. We ended up going out with them, we left after the eats to go to another pub in the village. I ended up drinking too much, I forgot how many pints I had, but fell asleep on the couch no sooner than we got home. Peter had to take me to bed.... Other than that nothing much has been going on in my life.

Late one night .no it early one morning

I realized I haven't posted her for awhile. I am trying to stay up late since I have to work tomorrow night, so am preparing myself.... I have another handbag party booked a week from this Friday. We also ordered more sample jewelry Monday, so we should be getting that this week. Can't wait usually the jewelry looks better than in the catalog we have printed off.

My mom is staying with her sister to help her out while she is recouping from pneumonia,I called her there on Mother's Day. My aunt picked up the phone and I didn't talk to her long because she sounded so hoarse that I thought keeping her talking would harm her voice more. Mom seemed to be enjoying the visit so far, I will have to send a card this week for sure.

One of Peter's daughter came for a visit this past weekend, she just recently begin to drive and drove solo from Dublin( which is about a 2-3 hr drive to here) she is very brave I can;t even drive to Clomnel(which is about 25 minutes away by myself) I told her I am hoping her bravery will encourage me. We rented movies and pretty much just hung around the house. She and her boyfriend will be here this coming weekend. They have some birthday party they are going to attend and staying with us.

Everything is fine with the dog and birds(well one baby bird died this week) but we still have a lot left...I forgot how many we have now, they are on their second breeding. I think that is all the breeding they do for one year then their feathers starts falling out....

I have found a lump on the bottom of my foot of all places. found it about a week ago then forgot about it, well tonight I was cutting my toenails and found it again, seems to be getting bigger, thought it was a swollen muscle at first now I am beginning to wonder what the heck it is. I had my blood drawn last week for my thyroid so when the results gets back will have the Doc check this out..... I have been out weed eating in the back yard and boy is my arm sore so I am not going to type too much more here. Will keep everybody posted on how all my lumps and bumps turn out.

Pic of me decorating first Christmas tree after I moved to Ireland.

Wasn't good news

Well I got the letter from about my Irish citizenship application. According to them I haven't been in the country long enough. I have 8 more months to go. One year I didn't get a registration card from the Garda here, so didn't find out I needed one until I took a trip to USA and when coming back over to Ireland I didn't have the card I was suppose to have even though I had been visiting the local immigration office every year since I have been here. He might have mentioned I needed to get one, but With me not understanding the language when I first arrived maybe got lost in the translation... Anyway I can apply all over again in August, so not too bad but having to copy all my life all over again doesn't sound very appealing. LOL I have to work night shift again tonight. I think that's my regular shift for awhile now.

I planted all the flowers I bought last week. Peter brought home some more flower containers from where he is working(they were going to throw them out and being the pack rat that he is he brought them home) Well for once I am glad he is a pack rat. LOL

My brother called to let me know that my aunt(which is my mom's sister) is in the hospital and not expected to live. Since then she has been walking and is coming home this week, so my mom is going to travel to her house and take care of her for awhile. My aunt is 88 and has survive a stroke and car accident she some strong woman....I will have to remember to send her a card this week. Well have 10 more minutes before getting ready for work and have to finish eating this pizza I fixed and have been munching on while typing this.....

The pic is of Peter in the smoking Mountains in December of 2001

Here I am again

I have survived the week once again. Not there was a chance that I wouldn't, but you never know. I feel a little better since I wrote my last post not as morbid at least. Today I went flower shopping again. I am going crazy for the flowers this year just planting them all over the place. I love a touch of color everywhere, now I just have to find a place to plant them all. Tomorrow if the rain holds out I will find a places to plant, so today just satisfied to get them watered......

My hand bag business is still going, I have only had the two parties now I am in the process of delivering the products and collecting my money. Which seems alot harder than first thought. going to have to rethink things out a bit better..... I have sated working night shifts now which as changed things some what but I can work around that as long as I can regulate my sleep better. Seems like I can't get enough sleep at the moment, hopefully it won't be that way all the time. Instead of playing computer games I think I am going to read. I have a bunch of books that I have bought about 6 months ago and wasn't in the reading mood so kind of getting back to that now. Monday is a bank Holiday and everything is closed so I guess I will have Tuesday before I can go to the bank and post office.. I have this registered mail that I have to pick up(hoping is good news from my Irish citizenship application) That would be wonderful... So keeping my fingers crossed....

Peter is still doing fine matter of fact we went together shopping and that has happen for a long time, usually he is working or I am doing something else, but finally today was the day and we found we enjoyed it. LOL Like the old days....

Picture of the rock garden I have out back of our house.. I bought more plants to add to it today.

A year ago yesterday

A year ago yesterday I buried my daughter Khristy Annette Begley she was 33 when she died. Still today I can't believe she is gone. I can remember when I had her, I was all of 19 years of age and hadn't a clue. She was over due by two weeks, I went into the hospital on a Thursday and didn't have her until Saturday. The doctor had induced my labor and when I didn't progress gave me something to help me sleep then induced me again the next day. Those were the days that no one was allowed back in the labor room so in order to see visitors I had to walk to the lobby of the hospital to see them during the earlier stages of my labor. I remember at one point I was walking around trying to speed up the labor(so they told me that this would would help) and the lobby was full of people. My brother had just played a football game and brought the whole team to visit... since my labor wasn't progressing as it should,they finally xrayed me to see what position she was in and found she hadn't completely turned around so that's when I had to lay on my side most of the time while I was being induced. Now things get a little hazy... I think it was Friday when they induced me again and I had to spend the time laying on my side and can remember some loud talking down the hall. One of the nurses saying sir you can't can't go in there and another voice saying this is my daughter and I will go in there and see her and you can't stop me... Then my father stood in the doorway and came up to me and ask was I ok... he only got to stay a moment until the nurses ran him out..I found out later that my mom was in the chapel there at the hospital praying most of the time.... If I had of known that I would of really been worried because since I had never been through this I was thinking this was normal labor. Khristy finally arrived on Saturday morning I had a third degree tear(as they called it) because she had such broad shoulders. She weighted 8lbs and 7 ozs. My first child . So I dedicate this post to you , my lovely daughter. You knew that I loved you and I knew that you loved me too, the drugs kept us from having the relationship that we both wanted.

Below is lyric 's to a song by Sarah Mc loughlin ,that was one of the songs I played at the funeral, it was one of Khristy's favorite songs. Also I kept the poem I had one of my good friends to read. That has special meaning to me because I did have a premonition two month before she died, Khristy came to me in voice only and told me she was dying of a drug overdose, told me she loved me and that she was sorry for all the things she had put me through, we had a chance to tell each other how much we loved one another and to say good bye. I didn't know at the time it would be the last time I heard her voice or I would have said more.....

Spend all your time waiting For that second chance For a break that would make it okay There's always one reason To feel not good enough And it's hard at the end of the day I need some distraction Oh beautiful release Memory seeps from my veins Let me be empty And weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight In the arms of an angel Fly away from here From this dark cold hotel room And the endlessness that you fear You are pulled from the wreckage Of your silent reverie You're in the arms of the angel May you find some comfort there So tired of the straight line And everywhere you turn There's vultures and thieves at your back And the storm keeps on twisting You keep on building the lie That you make up for all that you lack It don't make no difference Escaping one last time It's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees In the arms of an angel Fly away from here From this dark cold hotel room And the endlessness that you fear You are pulled from the wreckage Of your silent reverie You're in the arms of the angel May you find some comfort there You're in the arms of the angel May you find some comfort here.

The poem is below...I will miss you every day of my life, a piece of me died with you Khristy, how I wish to hold you as I did when you were a child and tell you that everything is going to be alright. You grew into a beautiful woman and wished I could have protected you from all the bad things in life, but that wasn't meant to be... I know your in heaven and have become a Angel(like you use to call yourself) I love you.....

This the the poem...

Recently I dreamed I talked to you. You were in the desert, and you said That I would never want for love, for you Would love me now until the end of time. I cannot think that you are wholly gone, That one day you could simply be no more, And it should come about that your bright soul Would vanish like a rainbow in the darkness. For me it is as if you were away, Somewhere on a very long vacation. And though I know you're dead, you do not seem To be beyond the boundaries of my love. Our souls do not abide in days or hours But in a love that never, never ends. You will be with me till life is over, Then I with you somewhere beyond the stars