Oops I am at it again

Just had another party tonight. This time the owner of the nursing home where I work had a Jewelry party at her house. Only four people showed up, but I got 176.00 in sales. She is going to have another one closer to Christmas. The owner of one of the pubs in going to let us use a room in his pub for displaying our jewelry that is set for next Thursday. Tomorrow we will be busy getting the posters in local store windows and putting them up in pubs, things like that to get the word out. One of the patients at the nursing home , her niece owns a pub in a village near here and I have invited her and hopefully she will have a party in her pub. The business is growing from where we started from. We are able to order more larger supplies to sell on the night. We started off by just having a few samples and customers would have to order out of a catalog and would get their stuff in about a week.

Things have been going pretty good for me. I haven't posted here in awhile. Just haven't felt like typing and really haven't had a lot to say. Noticed I used haven't three times......Now that last line should tell you I don't have a lot to say. LOL

Peter's Mom and sister came for a visit about three weeks ago. Very nice. I cooked them my famous steaks and spare ribs. Which they enjoyed very well. We also went out to the pub on Saturday night of course I drank too many. I don't drink very much and when I do it all goes to my head. Any way we have made arrangements for all of to go to England to visit another one of Peter's sisters. Well we did say we all wanted to go. So I guess that's a start. Waiting to hear back from his sister for all the arrangements. LOL

I am working night shift for Saturday and Sunday this week. Going to try while I am out tomorrow to get a shaver for the dog so I can start trimming her myself...That's going be be a trip. I have found this site on the Internet that gives you step by step instructions on how to trim a west highland terrier. Wish me luck...But I do have months for her hair to grow out before I put her into another dog show.

Molly

This is this best pic of her and her ribbons. She got 2nd, 3rd and 4th places.

The Bansha Show and Festival 2007

I think I have mentioned in previous posts that I was entering my Dog Molly in the local dog show well the pics are in and she won three ribbons out of the four classes I put her in, she didn't get 1st in any of them, but I am happy she got any ribbon....This being her first show and all, I believe she would have done better if I had handled her better, but it was my first time also. So all in all I was very pleased with the results. Now have to find a groomer I can learn from and get practicing on cutting a west highland hair for shows. I plan on getting trimming table with a noose to hold her because she is all over the when I even come at her with a pair of scissors. Just imagine when I come at her with the electric shears. Know wonder people have bolts of lightening shaved in their head, it was a slip of the shears and to cover it up it became a fashion statement. LOL

I also am sharing some pics of the Bansha concert we went to last Sunday. Aslan was the Irish group that performed. Peter took the pics we decided to bring the dog for her to get use to being around crowds so I was holding her or leading her while Peter was taking the pics.... I did get to shake the lead singers hand after the show. They are pretty big band here in Ireland, I don't know if anyone has heard of Crazy World but that is one of their top songs.

I start back to my day shift this coming Monday so maybe things can get back to normal for awhile. We are ready to begin to move forward with selling our Jewelry and handbags....So beginning in Septemer hopefully I will be busy selling and having parties.

Another year older

This past Saturday was my 54th birthday. I would like to thank everyone again for sending me e-mails and calling me to wish me a happy birthday.... I can't believe the years are pasting by so quickly. I can remember when I was younger that I couldn't wait until I turned 21, now 33 years later I am saying what the hell happen????? LOL Looking back I have become a nurse, had three children, two divorces, and have moved to Ireland. WOW That would be the short story, sometimes when I feel typing a lot I will expand more.

This week I got everything straighten out as for as my work permit and residency for another year. The good thing is I don't have to have a work permit anymore because I have a stamp 4 immigration stamp on my passport . I can file for my citizenship next month(which will take 15 months to process) I will be glad when all this is over so I don't have to go through this every year.

My business is going kind of slow this time of year with everyone going on vacation and all. Still trying to get it together as for as a place to show the jewelry so when I can't get a party booked at least I will have that every week to do..... So we have to wait until after the Bansha festival before we can move forward with that because we are planning on having the room in a pub in Bansha.

I have enter my dog in the Bansha show this year. The show is kind of like a county fair in the USA, only its for a day. People bring their crafts, live stock and such to be judged. So they have a Dog show along with all the other events...I have entered her in 4 events so hopefully she will do something. If not, I will forget the shows and just breed her because she is a nice friendly dog and has come from good stock.....

Still working night shifts this month so this has upset my bio rhythm, even on my nights off I don't feel like sleeping at normal times so I usually stay up until 3 or 4 in the morning. Hopefully it will be for this month only..... I don't think I could keep this up for too long, then again I don't like day shift either. LOL Now that I don't need a work permit in order to remain in the country it would be nice if the jewelry business took off really well so I could spend full time on that unstead of having to work as a nurse also, but for now it pays the bills.

Back From Dublin

Had a fantastic time. We didn't begin travelling until the day of the party and it seemed like the minute we got into the car it started raining and rained all the time we were in the car..... Once we arrived it stopped raining and had one shower while we was there..... Anyway everyone enjoyed the party. There was alot of Peter relatives that we haven't seen since his brother Richard's wedding. His sister Marion being one of them. We have made plans of going over to England sometime over the New Year Holidays. She moved to England about 5 years ago. We have beeen saying that we are coming over for a visit one of these days and have never got around to doing it, so this coming December we will be off to England.

The party had around 100 people there or it seemed like that at the end of the night, after we left the pub we went back to Patsy's house and partied until 6:30 in the morning. Getting too old for this..... Then the next night was Peter's mom regular night at the pub so we went out drinking again. On the way home Monday was the prettiest weather we have had in sometime. This week has had off and on sunshine, which is better than rain all the time.

I go back to night shift next week again, one of the nurses took off to America to visit her daughter and we don't really know how long she will be gone. She was very secretive about it all but she is that kind of person anyway, for some reason. Oh well , I am having problems getting my work permit this year, seems like they changed forms and didn't tell my boss until she sent in the old form, so they have sent the form back twice because it needed something else filled out or more information. Its like they read down the page until they get to something they need send the form back then when they get it back finish reading the rest of the form until they get to another place that needs filled out......This has been going on since May. It like give me a break its not like this is my first time getting a work permit, I have been renewing for 5 years. Since I can file for my citizenship I guess they want to hassle me..... LOL

I have posted some pics of the party..... Enjoy The bottom pic is of Peter's sister Marion and her boyfriend they are the ones we are going to visit in England , the first pic is of Aunt Pasty(can you believe she is 70???)

More pics of the dog Molly

By now everyone is getting tired of seeing pics of her I am sure but I just love the little dog. I had put her in a boarding kennel and we are due to leave for Dublin sometimes today. I have got to light a fire under Peter's butt to get him moving. LOL This time I brought warmer clothes because last time I almost froze to death. Now watch it will be real sunny, but I have wised up and packed clothes for both kinds of weather. I will get a bunch of pics and post them when I get back. Also added a pic of Evan and his girlfriend Carrie and some flowers I have planted this year.

We're going to Dublin

I got the shots for the dog and have booked the kennel. One of Peter's sister phoned last night and said we could stay with her. So everything set for a big night out. Well not everything I still have to buy presents and haven't a clue. There is this place that is going out of business in town called the House of Merlin. Usually everything was over priced there but it was a nice place to get gifts for people, I had thought they already went out of business well found out today they still have the shop open and everything is half price....So I am going there tomorrow to check it out. I know they aren't expecting anything but I would being the person I am would love to find something for them.

Here is some pics of the dog that I have downloaded from my mobile phone and pics of other things to tell ya the truth I have forgotten what pics I took until I get into my pics on the computer. Cutting this shirt hope to have pics at the party and will post them....

Yeah we're getting rid of Peter's old car

I bought a car over a year ago, Peter's car has been sitting out back since. He drives the van and I drive my car. We tried to give it to Peter's older brother Adam but things just didn't seem to work. Well Peter didn't do the paper work we needed to get done in order to get the car to them. Days turned into weeks and weeks into months Well we all know the story... Peter's other son wrecked his car and he needed another one so he is coming today with his girlfriend to get it. The car has been setting for awhile so it will need a new battery,plus the inside of the car is a mess.... But he get it free so I hope he sees that more than what it looks like at the moment.

Had a lovely visit with Evan Peter's son and his girlfriend Carrie. First time meeting Carrie and she seemed like a very nice girl. We gave her some of the jewelry we are selling. One bracelet we got by mistake, that had a heart and another little heart, Peter said he was going to save that for Carrie when he met her, because she is pregnant and the two little hearts were for her and the baby. She is due in December. They arrived on Friday and spent the night then after getting the car started took off Saturday afternoon. Cute couple they spent alot of time cuddling on the couch which I thought was very sweet. The beauty of love.

I just realized that this weekend we are going to Dublin and I hadn't perpared the dog with the shots she is suppose to have in order to board her so I have had to do some calling for someone to work for me on Monday afternoon. I called the vet when I thought about it and they only give shots Monday Wednesday, and Friday between the hours of 5-7. I am really cutting it short because they are suppose to have this certain shot called kennel cough 10 days before going into the kennel. So I don't know if its going to work or not. I think I am going to have to play dumb to get out of this one. So we can make the trip to Dublin. I have already schedule to be off work on a Monday following the weekend. Gosh I don't know where my mind is at these days seems like time is just flying by and I can't keep up.

Also who every reads this please start leaving a comment every now and then. I beginning to feel lonely thinking no one is reading my blog..... Very insecure these days for some unknown reason. I have even forgot who all I have sent the link to, Maybe will send to people again for them to read or save to favorites. Well thats the end of my whining.

I bought a Mobile Phone

I am proably the last person on earth that doesn't have one. I decided since my business is expanding to parts of Ireland that I am not familar with, that I needed one to use in case I got lost. Well I just wonder why I didn't get one sooner. Its like a toy with me, I can take pics, make a movie (very short video) text of course plus alot more features that I don;t know about yet....Of course I haven't finished reading the mannal. I only do that when I don't know how to do something. LOL I can see my self someone asking me to call them and I say let me get my book out and they reply well my number is stored in your phone, then I say to them no its my mannal I have to get out to find out how I call you LOL

I have another party tonight. So looking forward to it. We are thinking about other things to expand the business plus be able to keep the cost down. I will post some pics of some of the jewelry and handbags that I took with my mobile phone. Well better go so I can get a bath and my hair dry before tonights party.

Its still raining

It has been raining here since the second week in May. Of course it doesn't rain all the time, but it has rained at least once a day since then. Sometimes we have on and off showers like it is doing today. Which makes you not want to do errands, just stay in for the rest of the day. Or maybe I am just getting lazy..... I have decided to have a jewelry party here at my house again this Friday. this will be the last week of night shifts then I get on my normal Monday and Tuesday 12 hours shifts. Peter has been busy in trying to recruit more people to work selling our stuff. So far two people are willing and I think his sister in Dublin would like to do it but I don't think she has committed, as of yet. We go ahead and buy the starter kit(which is some samples of what we sell) They get 25% of what they sell. Not really bad. We are selling more jewelry than handbags we are still working on that trying to sort out a source that has the handbags once we get the order and don't have a ,got to buy 200.00 minimum to place a order.

I gave Molly a much needed bath yesterday. She likes her baths but I swear she wears me out every time I give her one. She got a hair cut about a Month ago and the girl that did it got it uneven in places, so going to have to even it up some way. I really don't want to take Molly all the way to Limerick(which is about 30 miles away) to get her hair even up for the Bansha Dog show which is next month. I was hoping her hair would grow a little faster than what it has been doing. She looks ok I am afraid if I get in there with the clippers she will really be messed up. LOL Well if it keeps on raining like its been doing it won't matter a bit about what she looks like. The Bansha show is outside rain or shine.

The sun is out so I better grab my moment and get my errands done..... Everybody be careful out there.

Dublin

We went to Dublin this past weekend and have a great time. Well the first part wasn't so great I had to pay 150.00 for a consultation with this neurosurgeon about the acoustic neuroma I have in my ear. wasn't good news or bad news it was just the fact I had to pay out that money for him to talk to me about something I already knew about. I did find out from the hundreds he has treated that I have 30% chance that it won't grow at all 70% that it will grow at a normal rate and I won't have to have anything done for about 12 years now out of those there is a 10% chance it will be a fast growing one..... I get another MRI the last of the year and will be able to tell my growing rate so we are at this wait and see phase and might be for the next 12 years.

Now the fun part we stayed at Peter's aunt house well she has a cottage behind her house that was empty so it had a small little kitchen, bedroom living room and very small bathroom. At first I had booked a bed and breakfast because everyone seem to be going out of town and we didn't have anywhere to stay, unknown to us his aunt was trying to rent the small cottage and thought she had it rented and this guy backed out, so after I had book the b&b I had to cancel the booking because they didn't find out about the guy not going to rent until 2 hours after I had book the b&b....Sounds confusing well it was ....... After we got settled down we went visiting his aunt and cousin and of course his mother which lives right across the road. they are just a fun bunch to be around. From the first time I met them they have treated me like family. Of course went I arrive its always lets slang the yank LOL But think mostly Peter was getting into that this time.... What was up with that???? Anyway Friday night was wine night at his mother's house. I got very drunk, which I don't drink much anymore so I had about a bottle and a half of the good ole grapes and ended up real funny at first, then the last glass started crying in my glass so to speak Peter had to end up around 3am helping me across the street into bed. A good time was had by all. Next day (most of it anyway ) going in slow motion trying to get over the hangover. We did however, went for a drive around the seaside, took a walk on the beach and ordered these most tasty prawns I have ever had. yum yum ...Next day Peter's mom took us out to eat and afterwards we went to grave yard. Yes you heard me right.... Peter had told me that a guy named Phil Lennox was buried in a cemetery near by. He was the lead singer for a group called Thin Lizzy. I don't remember much about the band because they didn't make it too big in the USA, but they were a Ireland band back in the 80-90's. They did have one hit I can remember called The boys are back in town Anyway, he died of a drug over dose about 21 years ago and Peter had told me that people visit the grave and leave all kinds of stuff there like pics jewelry just personal items. Well when we finally found the grave true to form there was all kinds of stuff all over the grave. One women there told us that his mother still visits his grave every day. I got so overwhelmed by the whole experience that I left behind a ring I was wearing at the time. I will post pics of the grave and pics we took around the seaside in Dublin. We are planning on going back to Dublin July 28th because Peter's aunt is turning 70 and her daughter is turning 40 so they have rented out a pub and going to have a big birthday bash.

While there we mixed some business along with our visit, Peter sister and cousin is very interested in selling the jewelry, of course we gave away more than we sold...We wanted to give the pieces that people picked out but his sister insisted on paying for hers because she was buying for gifts so we just charged her what we would pay for them. We got more items in this week along with my order for the two parties that I gave about 2 weeks ago, so tomorrow is delivery day. I am still working night shifts because now nurses are on vacation everything should get back to normal about the second week in July. I will be back to my two 12 hour day shift position.

Gosh is this all I talk about?????

My handbag party Tuesday turned out to be much better than the Friday. I adjusted my approach of keeping all my stuff in one room, and seem to work out very well. The last two parties as for as selling goes wasn't as much as my two previous parties but even with that it beats working at a nursing home..... I do bring home more money for the work I do. Seems to me the jewelry is out selling the handbags so we are focused more on that part of the business. I will get more things as times goes on. I would love to sell scented candles and stands. maybe scarfs, or shawls maybe nice looking picture frames something like that. Peter is getting to work on getting more people to sell for us with them getting 25 % of what they sell. We have 3 people that are interested so now just have to get them to see what we are selling and get them to commit.

We are going to Dublin this week. I have a appointment with the neurosurgeon about my accoutic neuroma so were making a mini vacation out of it. a lot of Peter's relatives lives in Dublin(which is where he is originally from) We always have fun with them all and looking forward to seeing them again. We can't afford to go on a big vacation this year since we have invested money into our business so this week is as good as it gets this year. I am taking off work this week.... So it makes me feel great just to be able to do something. Molly the dog is going into a boarding kennel while we are away. I actually had to book her into one, its costing 10.00/day. I bring my her own food. That's the way unless you have good friends that are willing to put up with the hassle, at this point I don't think I want to impose on a friend to take care of her because I am so picky......so it best that I do it this way at this time.

What is this thing with Paris Hilton???? Who really gives a shit???? American press is just obsessed about it....

Pic is of beautiful sunset in Ireland

I should at this time be a pro

I had my third handbag and jewelry party this past Friday. For some reason the handbags aren't selling as well so we decided at this party that we would put what stock we had we would just have them for sell instead of putting out the whole line of handbags that we have in the catalog, also we had bought some jewelry from another company that we didn't have in the catalog so I put all those items in another room and the had the jewelry samples from the catalog om another room. Big mistake...... I should have kept everything together. While I was in one room someone stole a necklace from the other room. That was the first time that has ever happen, but it really made me mad. You put all this trust in people and then something like this happens and now you have to be on guard. It wasn't really the cost of the item that I was worried about because it wasn't that much and they didn't even get the box that it came in, but its the fact that someone would to it. The girl that gave the party was was so distraught that she offered to pay for the necklace but I wouldn't hear of it. I guess just knowing they have a thieve in their neighborhood would be enough because now they have to be on guard as long as they live there. Well for the people that showed up I didn't get the sales that I thought I would. But sells is sells. Also it proved to me that I can work the night before and get some sleep and have a party the same night. I have another party for Tuesday night and will keep everything on one room for this one. Over all I am still enjoying giving parties and thinking about today just checking out a flea market(car boot sells as they call then here) to see if that would be a option for selling what I have in stock.

Molly ( my dog) got a make over yesterday. I had her cut like a show dog of her breed should be cut. She is just still a pup and her hair hasn't gotten as long as it should but I think she looks pretty good. The back legs more hair was taken off than I wanted but hopefully it will grow out some before August. Going to have to brush her today. Believe me she know that something is going on because now she has this air about her...and its not just gas....LOL If I can get the camera working again I will take more pics of her. I am just going to have to buy more rechargeable batteries. That's all there is to it...... Pic is of the new baby Rachel (Peter's daughter child) Enjoy

The lump on my foot turned out to be ganglion cyst and I really don't know what to make of it, the medication he put me on just puts me to sleep and have been taking as directed(which is alot for me, being a nurse I have a tendency to think I know more than the doctor) Well problem hasn't went away as hoping it would. I still jave the swelling but it doesn't hurt as much, I am not going back to the doctor until it starts causing me a great deal of pain.

My aunt is doing much better matter of fact my mother left to go back to her house after about two weeks taking care of her. My aunt is 86 and has pulled out of more things in her life than I can think of , she is a pretty strong willed person.

There is a Monster in our hallway

Today we went out and bought a lawn mower. Earlier last year we had some of our back yard leveled and grass send sown. Needless to say now we have to mow the grass. So therefore we went shopping for a lawn mower. The poor check out girl, first of all we did our homework before going out into the jungle of shopping in Limerick on Sunday. So we picked out the lawn mower that we thought suited our needs took it up to the check out counter, before we had read a sign that said get your starter kit(which was oil gas can and something else I can't remember) so Peter thought that might be a good idea to check that out. So the check out girl rung up the lawn mower and Peter ask about the start up kit she didn't know anything about that told him to go to the sales counter, well she had already rung up the lawn mower and I was going to pay for it all by credit card,so we were holding up the line as well. While waiting I noticed she had rung up 424.00 instead of 384.00, so I told her the sign had said 384.00 so she might want to look that up while we was waiting. Well she was foreign and don;t think she understood much English. So she just stood they, then I can see Peter motioning me to come there where he was, well we ended up picking up another box and check out counter girl was right. They had the model in the box but not on the floor so without reading what was on the box we just thought it was the one on the floor. After all that was straighten out we left(oh by the way we didn't get the start up kit for 50.00 .} and we didn't go back through the same check out counter. We brought it home, and its huge. It should have some kind of seat on it so you can sit down. LOL There it just sits in our hallway like some looming monster.

I have two handbags parties next week one on Friday and the other the following Tuesday. I talked to this lady that Peter had did a job for today while we was in Limerick he had to return a key to her house that he had while doing work there anyway I bought some samples along and she like the products and the price so she said the last part of June would be good for her. I have other people that haven't committed as of yet...

Pic is of a deer we took in the Smokey Mountains maybe we should have bought a deer or Donkey for the lawn.

Haven't posted in awhile

Just noticed I haven't posted for awhile, so thought I better say something. I went to the Doctor on Monday to check on my Thyroid Blood test, while I was doing that I had him check ou the lump on my foot. Cyst on a ligament. Put me on anti inflammatory (which is making me sleep) So getting more sleep now. Thyroid was doing find so I continue to take my Eltroxin 100mcg daily Still have the appointment in Dublin with the neurosurgeon about my acoustic neuroma. That's all of my health problems out of the way.

We have ordered more jewelry from different sites and they came in this week. I am very satisfied with all of the jewelry so far and still can under price the stores here in town. I have another party for this coming Friday. It will be interesting ,because I am still working night shift and have to work Thursday night... I am hoping I can come home and get some sleep then get ready for the party which is at 8pm. Handbags we seem to have a problem with them the way we are selling them. They go out of stock quickly and if a person orders one form the catalog we have made up doesn't necessarily mean the company we order from will have them when we turn in the order. So we are still in the thinking stage of what to do about that. At this party I am going to just take the handbags that I have in stock and try to sell them. More people are ordering the Jewelry anyway.

My aunt seems to be doing better. I really need to call my mom because she is there taking care of her. To see how my mom is doing, she is not getting any younger and I hope she is not wearing herself out. There is alot of things I should be doing but just haven't done it. LOL

Last weekend one of Peter's daughter came to visit, one of her friends father was having a birthday party at the pub called the foot. Anyway she brought her boyfriend this time. He is a very nice fellow, very friendly. We ended up going out with them, we left after the eats to go to another pub in the village. I ended up drinking too much, I forgot how many pints I had, but fell asleep on the couch no sooner than we got home. Peter had to take me to bed.... Other than that nothing much has been going on in my life.

Late one night .no it early one morning

I realized I haven't posted her for awhile. I am trying to stay up late since I have to work tomorrow night, so am preparing myself.... I have another handbag party booked a week from this Friday. We also ordered more sample jewelry Monday, so we should be getting that this week. Can't wait usually the jewelry looks better than in the catalog we have printed off.

My mom is staying with her sister to help her out while she is recouping from pneumonia,I called her there on Mother's Day. My aunt picked up the phone and I didn't talk to her long because she sounded so hoarse that I thought keeping her talking would harm her voice more. Mom seemed to be enjoying the visit so far, I will have to send a card this week for sure.

One of Peter's daughter came for a visit this past weekend, she just recently begin to drive and drove solo from Dublin( which is about a 2-3 hr drive to here) she is very brave I can;t even drive to Clomnel(which is about 25 minutes away by myself) I told her I am hoping her bravery will encourage me. We rented movies and pretty much just hung around the house. She and her boyfriend will be here this coming weekend. They have some birthday party they are going to attend and staying with us.

Everything is fine with the dog and birds(well one baby bird died this week) but we still have a lot left...I forgot how many we have now, they are on their second breeding. I think that is all the breeding they do for one year then their feathers starts falling out....

I have found a lump on the bottom of my foot of all places. found it about a week ago then forgot about it, well tonight I was cutting my toenails and found it again, seems to be getting bigger, thought it was a swollen muscle at first now I am beginning to wonder what the heck it is. I had my blood drawn last week for my thyroid so when the results gets back will have the Doc check this out..... I have been out weed eating in the back yard and boy is my arm sore so I am not going to type too much more here. Will keep everybody posted on how all my lumps and bumps turn out.

Pic of me decorating first Christmas tree after I moved to Ireland.

Wasn't good news

Well I got the letter from about my Irish citizenship application. According to them I haven't been in the country long enough. I have 8 more months to go. One year I didn't get a registration card from the Garda here, so didn't find out I needed one until I took a trip to USA and when coming back over to Ireland I didn't have the card I was suppose to have even though I had been visiting the local immigration office every year since I have been here. He might have mentioned I needed to get one, but With me not understanding the language when I first arrived maybe got lost in the translation... Anyway I can apply all over again in August, so not too bad but having to copy all my life all over again doesn't sound very appealing. LOL I have to work night shift again tonight. I think that's my regular shift for awhile now.

I planted all the flowers I bought last week. Peter brought home some more flower containers from where he is working(they were going to throw them out and being the pack rat that he is he brought them home) Well for once I am glad he is a pack rat. LOL

My brother called to let me know that my aunt(which is my mom's sister) is in the hospital and not expected to live. Since then she has been walking and is coming home this week, so my mom is going to travel to her house and take care of her for awhile. My aunt is 88 and has survive a stroke and car accident she some strong woman....I will have to remember to send her a card this week. Well have 10 more minutes before getting ready for work and have to finish eating this pizza I fixed and have been munching on while typing this.....

The pic is of Peter in the smoking Mountains in December of 2001

Here I am again

I have survived the week once again. Not there was a chance that I wouldn't, but you never know. I feel a little better since I wrote my last post not as morbid at least. Today I went flower shopping again. I am going crazy for the flowers this year just planting them all over the place. I love a touch of color everywhere, now I just have to find a place to plant them all. Tomorrow if the rain holds out I will find a places to plant, so today just satisfied to get them watered......

My hand bag business is still going, I have only had the two parties now I am in the process of delivering the products and collecting my money. Which seems alot harder than first thought. going to have to rethink things out a bit better..... I have sated working night shifts now which as changed things some what but I can work around that as long as I can regulate my sleep better. Seems like I can't get enough sleep at the moment, hopefully it won't be that way all the time. Instead of playing computer games I think I am going to read. I have a bunch of books that I have bought about 6 months ago and wasn't in the reading mood so kind of getting back to that now. Monday is a bank Holiday and everything is closed so I guess I will have Tuesday before I can go to the bank and post office.. I have this registered mail that I have to pick up(hoping is good news from my Irish citizenship application) That would be wonderful... So keeping my fingers crossed....

Peter is still doing fine matter of fact we went together shopping and that has happen for a long time, usually he is working or I am doing something else, but finally today was the day and we found we enjoyed it. LOL Like the old days....

Picture of the rock garden I have out back of our house.. I bought more plants to add to it today.

A year ago yesterday

A year ago yesterday I buried my daughter Khristy Annette Begley she was 33 when she died. Still today I can't believe she is gone. I can remember when I had her, I was all of 19 years of age and hadn't a clue. She was over due by two weeks, I went into the hospital on a Thursday and didn't have her until Saturday. The doctor had induced my labor and when I didn't progress gave me something to help me sleep then induced me again the next day. Those were the days that no one was allowed back in the labor room so in order to see visitors I had to walk to the lobby of the hospital to see them during the earlier stages of my labor. I remember at one point I was walking around trying to speed up the labor(so they told me that this would would help) and the lobby was full of people. My brother had just played a football game and brought the whole team to visit... since my labor wasn't progressing as it should,they finally xrayed me to see what position she was in and found she hadn't completely turned around so that's when I had to lay on my side most of the time while I was being induced. Now things get a little hazy... I think it was Friday when they induced me again and I had to spend the time laying on my side and can remember some loud talking down the hall. One of the nurses saying sir you can't can't go in there and another voice saying this is my daughter and I will go in there and see her and you can't stop me... Then my father stood in the doorway and came up to me and ask was I ok... he only got to stay a moment until the nurses ran him out..I found out later that my mom was in the chapel there at the hospital praying most of the time.... If I had of known that I would of really been worried because since I had never been through this I was thinking this was normal labor. Khristy finally arrived on Saturday morning I had a third degree tear(as they called it) because she had such broad shoulders. She weighted 8lbs and 7 ozs. My first child . So I dedicate this post to you , my lovely daughter. You knew that I loved you and I knew that you loved me too, the drugs kept us from having the relationship that we both wanted.

Below is lyric 's to a song by Sarah Mc loughlin ,that was one of the songs I played at the funeral, it was one of Khristy's favorite songs. Also I kept the poem I had one of my good friends to read. That has special meaning to me because I did have a premonition two month before she died, Khristy came to me in voice only and told me she was dying of a drug overdose, told me she loved me and that she was sorry for all the things she had put me through, we had a chance to tell each other how much we loved one another and to say good bye. I didn't know at the time it would be the last time I heard her voice or I would have said more.....

Spend all your time waiting For that second chance For a break that would make it okay There's always one reason To feel not good enough And it's hard at the end of the day I need some distraction Oh beautiful release Memory seeps from my veins Let me be empty And weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight In the arms of an angel Fly away from here From this dark cold hotel room And the endlessness that you fear You are pulled from the wreckage Of your silent reverie You're in the arms of the angel May you find some comfort there So tired of the straight line And everywhere you turn There's vultures and thieves at your back And the storm keeps on twisting You keep on building the lie That you make up for all that you lack It don't make no difference Escaping one last time It's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees In the arms of an angel Fly away from here From this dark cold hotel room And the endlessness that you fear You are pulled from the wreckage Of your silent reverie You're in the arms of the angel May you find some comfort there You're in the arms of the angel May you find some comfort here.

The poem is below...I will miss you every day of my life, a piece of me died with you Khristy, how I wish to hold you as I did when you were a child and tell you that everything is going to be alright. You grew into a beautiful woman and wished I could have protected you from all the bad things in life, but that wasn't meant to be... I know your in heaven and have become a Angel(like you use to call yourself) I love you.....

This the the poem...

Recently I dreamed I talked to you. You were in the desert, and you said That I would never want for love, for you Would love me now until the end of time. I cannot think that you are wholly gone, That one day you could simply be no more, And it should come about that your bright soul Would vanish like a rainbow in the darkness. For me it is as if you were away, Somewhere on a very long vacation. And though I know you're dead, you do not seem To be beyond the boundaries of my love. Our souls do not abide in days or hours But in a love that never, never ends. You will be with me till life is over, Then I with you somewhere beyond the stars

I am alive

I have made it .... I did four 12 hour shifts in a row and 53 wow....I still got it... Well I am not able to do anything since I got off work,but yeah, give me a break I did mention I was 53. LOL

Our handbags came in today from the 2nd party, plus orders from single orders, I don't so far have a party booked for this week because of working night shift, so maybe I can get back to my normal shift, but I have a feeling next month is not going to be normal at all with work. We have this nurse that is taking off on Holiday for a month going back to her homeland India...Still have the nurse out that her husband died...Then the boss has let another nurse go on Holiday the first week in May...I really don't know what she is thinking we don't really have that many nurses to cover all those nurses being gone, I did find out that there is no way I can do a repeat performance with the 4 shifts. I can only do what I can and that's it....I can't help it if all these people want off at the same time and she lets them..Well two she couldn't help..The girl had down vacation time in plenty of time for her to get it together.... Oh my venting is over with. I think LOL

The jewelry is suppose to be in tomorrow can't wait until I get all the orders in and all given out. Peter went ahead and ordered more stuff as samples for me to sow at the parties. So I really need to get my priorities straight... The handbag business should come first because I do want to get out of nursing... So bad....

By working night shift it reminded me when I did work night shift in the States and that was a good memory with the people I used to work with and Peter being there it was a good feeling.

Tomorrow is shopping day because it is the only day I have free... Well I do have the weekend but I really want to take it easy....

Be careful out there